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Feeling sick :(

2011-11-10T04:55:00.002+08:00

Tonight, I'm feeling a little bit unwell. Had been suffering from serious nose blockage since last Sunday, took pills for flu for two days and it's not giving much effect. I can't sleep well at night, I can concentrate in the class. Finally, ate some fresh garlic yesterday night as the boyfriend told me it's gonna help, and it really did ease the blockage a little. Now, I'm feeling hard to breath properly T.T I'm getting worried, I think I need to visit a doctor tomorrow. This cold weather just makes me want to stay in. :(

I'm staying in tonight, just in case? Actually I'm attending the dance society's social night (leopard tonight, I love leopard prints!), I was so excited but ended up I can't go. :( Nevermind, there's always next time. I still can be a leopard when it's not a leopard night out. ;)

Hope everything get better soon

Good night

xoxo

Revives?

2011-11-03T05:15:00.004+08:00

It had been a really really really looooooong time.

Everything has changed. Good change and bad change. No matter what, I believe God prepares the best for me. Amen. I guess I've changed too, big change small change, doesn't matter. The fact is people comes and goes. Yeah it's sad, but everything's going to be fine.

Facing all these unfamiliarities in this new life.

My hope is in Jesus, always.

All messed up

2011-04-25T22:55:00.003+08:00

Mashed up feelings.

What's happening?

It's already final week? OH-MY. and I have no motivation to study. I want to study, I want but nyehh..I'm not used to it. I never study my final alone in my room. :( and people who accompanied me studying for all my past semesters are not here anymore this semester. T.T You know who you guys are.

Mehhh. I need to overcome this! God, help me. T.T

I'm a little bit more stressed out tonight. I feel like I want to do something but I can't. And this feeling effing sucks. pffftt. I need to do something to cheer me up.

A good rest would be nice, but the second I closed my eyes, problems evolve around my head. My brain can't rest. How I wish I can shut myself down just like unplugging my laptop from the socket. :(

Nyehhhh. Understand me. Don't make me explaining myself.

xoxo
Summer

My first liltutorial

2011-04-08T10:36:00.005+08:00

Hello Everyone! I would like to share this look today. It's probably my first time doing this. This is my everyday make-up look, 10 minutes and you're ready to go! :D Hope it will be useful for you guys and that the steps below can be understood. :/

Products used :
From left to right : TBS vitamin C moisturizer with spf 30 ; SkinFood Lettuce & Cucumber Emulsion ; Dejavu mini mascara ; Stage PP Foundation in 05 ; Urban Decay Primer Potion ; Etude House's Color My Brows ; MAC lipstick in Shy Girl ; DUO eyelash glue ; MAC limited edition Pearlglide Intense Eye Liner ; Office Eyebrow Definer ; Stage Eyeshadow in Bahamas ; Etude House's Eyeshadow Brush ; Eyelashes in 419.

To start off, prep your face, cleanse it, use a toner and follow by your daily skin care. I'm using Za facial cleanser, Lancome's Tonique Douceur, Laneige's Waterbank essence and eyegel to hydrate my skin daily.

In the morning, I'll use the left moisturizer while at night I will used the right one. Because TBS's contain a spf of 30 to protect my skin from the daily sunlight.

First, I apply my foundation evenly on my skin, working from the center to the outer face. I like to use a sponge to do this. If you want more coverage, use a concealer to conceal the dark circles and blemishes around the nose and mouth. I usually use a lighter concealer so that it can acts as a highlight for my nose beam and undereyes.

Set your foundation with a thin layer of loose powder. I used Za's compact powder in 32 to set my face usually because it stays longer than ordinary loose powder.

Apply blusher on your cheeks, I concentrate more in the center and I like to bring some of the blusher across my nose and chin so that it looks more natural. Remember to smile when you do this, my friend always laughed at me when I smiled in the mirror myself. LOL

Eyebrows are super important to me. I will brush it with the Etude House's first then define it with my eyebrow pencil.

If you want to let the eyes to rest today, apply your favorite lip balm or tint here and you're ready to go. I usually do this when I know I'm not going anywhere else except for classes.

For the eyes, apply the primer all over the eye lid. Then get a neutral toned eyeshadow. I've been using this color below this recent days.

Using my eyeshadow brush, pick the color and pat excess off, I blend it evenly on my eyelid, where my eyeball is. Remember to always blend evenly, I don't bring them up too high as I don't want to overdo my eyes. Keep it natural looking, you just want some shadow to enhance the depth of your eyes.

I seldom use eyelash curler cause it harms the natural eyelash if you do it everyday. I don't like using mascara everyday too, cause while removing them, you streches the skin around the eyes a lot. I like to use fake lashes, the can opens up my eye instantly and it's easy!

See the difference, right eye with fake eyelash, and the left one still bare without. The next step is optional, brush your lower lashes. I'll use Loreal Telescopic Clean first and brush it again with the dejavu mini mascara one by one (the lash).

Lastly, put on some lip balm and apply your lipstick, I used MAC's in Shygirl.

And you're done!

For more fun,
add some glitter in the inner corners and bring them 1/3 under the lower lash line. OR use some funky color eyeliners, draw them along the inner corners and bring them outwards.

Hope you guys enjoyed reading this~ ^^

Be pretty and confident everyday~ HEHE

xoxo
babyWern

Turning Point

2011-04-03T00:12:00.004+08:00

I actually thought of closing down this blog but I did not.

In other way round, I thought, what happened happened, they are just gonna be part my lesson in life.

My life is at it's turning point now I guess. It was very tough at first, but I'm trying to cope with all these changes.

Thank God that He never leaves me, and still making my life better and beautiful as everyday passes. Thank you Jesus. :')

xoxo
Summer

Seaweed Love.

2011-03-03T12:16:00.004+08:00

Hi dearest readers, I'm here to give you guys some recent updates! It's March now, time passes so fast, Test 1 was just over few weeks ago, and now is time for assignments, while dues are on next week. O.O Test 2 is coming to visit this month too! In just a blink of eyes, I think my last semester here is almost ending. NO! :( I'm so gonna miss everything here. Sigh. Prom night is around the corner, next week to be exact. :) Not really looking forward but it's my final semester and I never attended my college's prom for the past 2 years. So yeah.. I should go this time. Last chance. :(

Yesterday, I weight myself and that number shocked me and I wanted to cry. T.T I'm 5kg heavier than before. :( I just cant stop eating, even though I'm already full, I still cant stop myself from stuffing food into my mouth. There's a time when i hardly eat, so people around start to force me to eat, and I couldn't stop now. T.T And It's very unhealthy.

@ Gasoline, tHe Spring, with my Puffy Chicx Mushroom Soup. It wasn't so nice after all. :(

Supper @ Novus with friends. Fattening but happy. :)

Sing Sang Sung @ Red Collesium (I'm not sure with the spelling)

My all time fave snacks- Seaweed is one of them. :p
YUMMMM

They now came out with another flavoouuurrr!
TOM YAM, and I like this the best among all others.
Wasabi will be the second now. HEHE

xoxo
Summer

A note

2011-02-23T23:19:00.002+08:00

Note: Some corrections about my previous post.

What I meant was, it's okay to EAT.
But NO WAY it's okay to be FAT.
I need a figure, I want a figure.
A hot nice figure :p

Imma now dump my laziness and start working out everyday I can.

xoxo
Summer

Hello Panda

2011-02-23T14:31:00.002+08:00

:)

Went church this morning, it's a great relief after the session. I fasted for 3 days, and now I can eat. I realized something..FOOD is like my second love after God. Went to take away at Mcd! Yummmms~ Although I almost ended up vomiting due to being too full after a few bites of the burger, I still manage to finish all of them!! It's not good to waste Food bah! Right. After the fast, this is another lesson I learned.

I know I'm gonna be fat. It's okay. It's okay. I don't mind as long as I'm happy! HEHE

P/s: I still feel like eating now. :) Hello panda Loves.

xoxo
Summer

It's not the End. :)

2011-02-21T16:35:00.009+08:00

:) So it had been quite some time since I last updated my blog. I was pretty busy having fun with church activities, friends, and college life. Today, I'm finally free to give you guys some update. Hope you guys still enjoy reading my blog and Good luck!

Girl: He broke up with me.. *cries*
BFF: Oh my! How come? *pat pat* It's okay. Be optimistic. He don't worth it if he's doing so to you. You're still young. :)
Girl: NO! NO! I love him , I only want him..I just cant stop thinking about him, all the memories and everything we did together, I'm used to having him in my life.
BFF keep on trying to help her out, talking like her grandmother but in the end..
Girl: *sniffs & finally stop after hours of crying* I understand , I'm fine. For now, I will not bug him to come back to me anymore, I'll just miss him alone and waiting him to regret and come back to me.

>> == , here's the face I'm gonna give now. Hello, wake up girl! What if he never regrets, so you're gonna wait until you get old , giving up your own chance of being happy again? Oh well, I was once this stupid, I cried every second missing him being part of my life, I isolate myself from everything! I don't eat, I don't drink (how the hell did those tears come from I wonder LOL), I showered with cold water hoping to get awful sick so he will come and care for me (can't believe I actually did this == ), I cut myself, I do crazy things, I skipped classes for weeks (until they think that I'm not here studying anymore), I drink myself drunk, I search & listen to emo songs, while browsing back our photos and cry like a miserable thing, when I can actually grab a tea with friends and have fun. I know, I'm so stupid. == I have the same idea too.

Oh my..I feel so embarrassed telling you guys all these. :/ BUT Yes! Breaking up is sad, I once read an article stating that ' The main cause of sadness is due to separations '. I agree with this. We tends to feel sad because we're leaving someplace, leaving someone, or in the other way round, someone, something leaving us. During high school graduations, we cry hugging each other, thinking that we will be approaching a new level in life without each other ; During farewells ; During someone's funeral ; At the airport when you're leaving someplace/someone. Basically, sadness wont last long, it's just a matter of time for us to wake up and face the reality. We still have to get on with life, there's more out there waiting for us, we should not keep ourselves stuck in the past, thinking of going back the past because the Earth wont stop revolving on it's axis because of us. What's done is already done. We have to MOVE ON. :)

1) First, STOP thinking about him
Yes, it's hard and it sounds almost impossible. But you have to do it, missing him doesn't give you any benefits but tears and depression. Why do this to yourself when he's obviously moving on with his own life? So, stop stalking him on Facebook, stop calling him and sending text messages when he doesn't even bother to reply once, stop looking at those photos if what you'll end up next is crying your country a new aquarium! Do something else, when you think about him, immediately STOP yourself.

2) Treat yourself better
LOVE yourself more, who do you expect to love you back if you yourself don't love yourself first? Look Good everyday, PAMPER yourself. Get a new hair cut, try new style everyday, mani/pedi, get a spa, care about your body and health, eat right, sleep right and so on. Do everything nice to yourself and people around you. Go shopping, catch a movie with your friends, chill with them and meet more friends. Spend more time with your family too, make your parents glad, don't keep them worrying. Extend your eye sight, look far. :)

3) BE YOURSELF again
Get a paper and pen, write down your dreams, your new aims in life. Concentrate and achieve them :) If you want to be a singer, sing! If you want to be a chef, cook! If you like to dance, dance! (LOL) Do what you like, you don't need to live for anyone, but yourself. Be Yourself again. You don't need to ask the boyfriend anymore if they like it or not, and you'll get to spend all your money to yourself. :) Find back your missing personality.

4) Study harder/ Work harder
Study hard for a better future,you'll get a better job, a better salary, so that you can give your parents a better living when they grow old/retired someday. Earn your own money. Study when you can, not everyone are given the chance to study. Study for knowledge, it's ours, for our own good.

5) Get a spiritual support
In other words, a religion. If you're a christian, pray! God will always lead us through. Trust God, Praise the Lord, Glorify His name, Give Thanks. Help people around you too, help them stand up, help them know about Your God.

The same to you of another religion. :)

6) Lastly, don't stop Hoping.
Don't give up Love, open up your heart!

In the bible, Genesis 2:18 - The LORD God said, " It is not good for a man to be alone. I will make a helper suitable for him." Thereby, God created Eve for Adam as his partner.

" What is He showing here? In relation to God's purpose, the most and the best will NOT be produced in us if we were alone. If we are independent, we remove ourselves from the circumstances that will produce the most toward His purpose. In this specific content, God is not commanding everyone to marry, but He is clearly showing that marriage is better than remaining single. "

May God Bless everyone !

xoxo
Summer

:D

2011-02-13T23:43:00.003+08:00

It's a Sunday today. Attacked by insomnia the previous night, slept around 5 in the morning. That night was awful! I cried my pillow wet, holding on until I finally fell asleep. However, I was able to wakeup on time when my friend morning called me at 7 for church. HEHE. Woke up, bathe and prepared ! AMAZING. Life with God is so AWESOME! Today, He spoke to me, He touched my heart, I cried so hard & I miss my parents. Pastor David shared a message, those words answered all my worries I've been facing all this time. All the worries, weakness, obstacles and hard time I'm having, it's a preparation for me, to be prepared for something greater God planned. Be the Queen!

After church, went back hostel and out again to attend a church meeting at 2pm. I'm one of them to serve God in this upcoming event on 20th of March. Last year I danced too, this year is something more grant. May God be with us all the time and bless this event a success! Took measurement for the outfit and my waist is now one inch more! T.T What should I do to shake them off? Yet, I'm still eating KFC at this hour! Oh yeah! It's Valentines day! Pass 12 already. HEHE <3

In the afternoon after meeting, met up sapoh at tHe Spring and shopped! She bought a dress for today's date! It's pretty! ^^ HEHE Today will be another great day with God! Amen

Thank you Jesus for everything!

Hallelujah~

xoxo

Summer

Live for You

2011-02-12T22:21:00.002+08:00

Don't let evil over control you, cause we belong to God.
He created everything. He gave us life. Living for Him is the only way to be happy. God never disappoints us! Amen.

Evil doesn't only mean killing or murders. Anger, the feeling of hate, the feeling of unforgiveness, are also feelings that drift us apart from God. This feeling do not belong to our God, He forgives ; He Loves ; He's everything good. When people makes you really angry or sad, forgive them because God will. Eventho they scolded you so badly or say something that hurts you so much, they are doing so to God because Christ lives within us. Don't let this feeling over control us. We live for God, not for them. God is our King, only He have the right to make us sad BUT He NEVER will!

Here's something interesting I would like to share, from what Moses shared today in Church. If you're already a christian, how many people around you know about Him. Let's say, in your school, in your class, how many of them actually know that God exists? How many of them actually know how AWESOME is your God? God loves everyone of them, tell them about your God, Glorify His name.

" God created Evil. Because God created everything. So He created Evil too, right? " a lecturer said so to his class.

" No Sir. " a student said. " Does cold exists, Sir? "

" Yes " the lecturer said. " No " the student said " Because in Physics, Cold is not created. It is cause by the 'ABSENCE of heat' " . " So does darkness, the ABSENCE of light cause darkness "

" God did not create evil. Evil exists when there's an absence of God's Love in that person's heart "

How amazing is this kid! I hope one day I will be able to speak for God like how he did . And this kid is ' Albert Einstein ' .

In life, we face obstacles. We have feelings, we can get really emotional, we can get really fed up, we feel like crap, we feel like a nobody and even at some point of my life, I feel like there's no more reason for me to live. Sometimes I blamed God why He gives me this life, why that He's not there when I needed Him? Did He heard my prayer? Or that He doesn't want me anymore because I did things He doesn't like? No. He loves us no matter what. His love never changes. He's there every time we needed Him, it's just that we don't know how, we need to understand Him more so that we can hear His voice. He heard our prayers, but He wants us to learn being patient. Trust God.

Everyone of us are perfect in God's eyes, He created us.

There's so much thing I wanted to say, but I guess I'm not that good in expressing/ elaborating them well. My English is private limited. :( If you find this post offensive, my apology.

May God bless everyone !

p/s: Ting Wen, hope you have a safe flight this coming Monday. May God light your path all way long! And to my friends who completed their 'A' levels, may God guide your way to the right path. Amen

xoxo
Summer

I'm okay

2011-02-12T10:47:00.001+08:00

I'm okay.

I'm okay.

I'm okay.

I'm okay.

I'm okay.

I'm okay.

I'm okay.

I'm okay.

I'm okay.

I'm okay.

I'm okay.

I'm okay.

xoxo
Summer

Why

2011-02-10T20:06:00.002+08:00

Currently in Kuching. I don't wanna come back here, having all these problem going round and round around my head. I'm confused. I'm feeling suffocated..I couldn't breath like a normal person. What's happening to me? Everything seems so wrong. I think I'm lost. Every time in my life, I tend to stay strong cause I don't wanna get hurt by anyone anymore. I had enough of them the past few years. But the more I hide, the more I get. I changed, I know, but who's there to really care about me. Are they real? Or they are just waiting me to break down, care about me but actually laughing me at the back that it's me who made my own life the way it is now. I'm sorry if there's anyone who really cared, I shouldn't think like this but it's just that I could not differentiate what's real and what's not. I've been fooled too many times, too many times. Why judge me if you don't know me. For the friend I cherish most, I'm sad cause even you did not understand me. It's you that I never thought will leave me and not be there for me anymore. We're once so close and so good. I've always place you in my first place but I know you never did. It's okay cause I know I still have a place in your heart. But now, I guess you no longer need me. Why? Why is it you cause I never thought you will. It had been 1 week, I did not pray. I'm sorry Father for this disappointment I made to you. God, please open up my heart, shed this wall I build, let my heart search for You.

Keeping inside

2011-02-01T12:29:00.003+08:00

Sleep Eat Sleep Eat, life's pretty boring here in Brunei. It hurts thinking about something, thinking about them, who used to be the one giving a great impact to my life. Now they're gone. Evrytime, I wonder what's my problem, it makes my mood swings so much but I guess I'm too good in hiding them. sigh. I really need to stop thinking and let God heal this relationship between everyone of us.

So here come 'Chinese New Year' in less than 48 hours? O.O
So fast, can don't so fast? T.T
I don't wanna go back Kuching yet.
...
I don't feel like sharing too much now...
I'll just stop here

xoxo
Summer

:(

2011-01-28T12:14:00.003+08:00

Back in Brunei.
Things are going good I guess.
But at some point
I feel empty
I don't know why
When you say things like that
I'm confused
I just wanna feel safe
You knew that I like to protect myself
I guess one day I will be gone, from your side
And go there where I can find secure, altho I may not be happy there.

Stop me,will you?

xoxo
Summer

Sick

2011-01-23T18:27:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling sick today.
It's awful. T.T

This headache and sores all over my body just wont leave me alone.
But it's ok.
I'd rather be maga ill to lose weight than to be super fine and eat like a pig!
If I could turn back time to the moment when I just come back Kuching.
I wont let my appetite come back.
How I wish I can don't eat to live, just like the way I was in Brunei.
I'm serious.

Stressss DIE.

T.T

Yet, I'm still eating now.
Eating Yogurt ! while missing Yogurt, our kitten.
Mummy haven't seen you for like 2 months already.
Will you still remember me? :(

P/s: My previous dance mate, text me today & asked me to join a performance for CNY. Thank God, finally I can go back dancing! :D

My body wants me to rest
but I'm too full to sleep. "FAT'

xoxo
Summer

^^

2011-01-19T22:54:00.003+08:00

Today was great cause I can sleeeeeeep late! Awesome! I had Hotel Law class at 2pm, finally get to see all my course mates ( most of them ), hehe. I miss them much! This will be my very final semester, and they are asking me where I will go for training. And they told me a great news i guess? I can go Singapore! Because last time I was eager of going SG for my training but their government representatives told me that they don't accept trainees. :( Now, different story, we have to go ask the hotel ourselves as they might want us? HEHE ^^

Hotel Law class was okay, although I almost fell asleep. I'm forcing myself not to. After class, went shopping and bought a new tee! It's not worth the price but I can't resist not buying it because of the Mickey on it! HAHAH! FYI, I super love Disney cartoons, and funny cartoons on my tee. I mean they look simple and cute! Don't you think so? :p

And was just back from Alicia's place for cell group.
I love love love church gatherings
God is what I'm living for.
He's all I have, and it's Enough!

P/s: I cant stop eating. T.T

xoxo
Summer

First day of 2nd week

2011-01-17T17:19:00.003+08:00

*Yawn*

I'm feeling tired today.

I don't know why in exact. Maybe, I'd been worrying a little bit too much today, can't help it. I feel so down and moody, and I feel like I need to do something instead of staying in this room. So, I prayed, praying that God can take away all my worries and guide me through. Jesus, I really need you. With God, I know I'm no longer alone. :')

Another reason, maybe I woke up too early today because I have class at 8am, only for 2 hours. The weather is so nice to sleep with, so I was super unwilling to get out of my cozy bed until I thought of this 'Education comes first', baru I got up and prepared for class. The morning was super cold, hence, I don't wanna freeze myself so I did not bath. FYI, I showered before I sleep last night. HEEE ^^ But Unfortunately, 8am class was canceled! What a waste, 'I' jadi wake up for 8am class today leh! Count that as a miracle. You'll know why if you know me well. :D

Today early morning, drinking *points* hehe. ♥

'Baby' necklace from Vincci, bought the other day.

Tada! The Ribena Mascot I mentioned earlier. ^^

Tomorrow will be another busy day for me. Challenging too, I guess. Cause I have to wake up super early for work ! T.T AT 6.30am, my relative will be fetching me up already. I really hope that I can wake up tomorrow. *prays hard*

P/s: I'm stress and I really need to diet. But how? T.T

xoxo
Summer

Pfftt

2011-01-17T11:45:00.002+08:00

Life with you is like riding a roller coaster ride

&^%$#@!@#$%

pffttt

xoxo
Summer

My day!

2011-01-15T23:50:00.002+08:00

Today is a Saturday

I slept very late yesterday night, cause I was coughing like no tomorrow. Bad night. T.T Woke up late in the morning, although tired but still have to force myself up cause am going to shop with my sapoh, qi. We both don't have class and we went off to tHe Spring with Inti's shuttle bus at 12pm.

Lucky thing, no rain today! Yay! We shopped for our CNY shoes and I bought mine at Charles & Keith. It's quite comfy. And also spy-ed on some heels and flats from Vincci, still thinking which to get thou. Maybe a converse for New Year would be nice too, because it's the only shoe that I can match with most of my outfits.

Btw, Qi and I saw a ' Ribena Mascot ' at tHe Spring too! haha. It is cute & clumsy, we managed to take a photo with it too! :D

Just now, had supper with my roommates and Suen at C121, whooo. really fat die me! But I'm very hungry, I mean we. But I did eat today! T.T

Why must we eat to live?

Gonna sleep late tonight
Because I'm still feeling FULL

Hope can wakie for tomorrow's church PnW.
God bless everyone!
Loves

xoxo
Summer

Im sorry

2011-01-14T23:11:00.001+08:00

Sorry for everything.

I really do feel so.

xoxo
Summer

New Semester

2011-01-12T22:39:00.003+08:00

Today was pretty good. :)

No class = Bored die.
This semester is my last semester. For all this time since my 2nd semester, I hope I can graduate fast & get OUT from this college. But now, I kinda wish time can pass slow because there's so much memories here that I'm gonna miss. :( AHHH, This is life. T.T Nooooo, there's tooooo much good and bad memories here! *cries*

So, my class is really getting less this semester, like there's only 3 days of class in a week! Booo, really boring and fattening, cause I have nothing better to do than eating and watching movie in my room. Tomorrow, finally have class! heh. xD

Been watching Vampire Diaries ever since I got back Kuching. In season 2, and I LOVE Vampires. SO hot! :D

And I really have to stop eating!! But How???
Sigh.

xoxo
Summer

Im a fool

2011-01-11T22:55:00.004+08:00

Clap for yourself

Why did I trust you? You made me
They made me
I made myself

It's stupid
Why are u so ugly inside?
You're seriously ugly inside.
But so good on the outside

Tell me
What do you want from me

When I wanted to let you go
You want me to stay
But still fooling with our feelings?

How many girls have you fooled?

Oh My God.
I can't believe how stupid I was, believing you, I really did! Promising things that I never dare to promise. I changed because I promised you. Because I care about your feelings! Because my sixth sense tell me you're the one. Right, I guess my sixth sense sucks. All the sacrifices I made, all I get is nothing.

You say Forever doesn't exist, you're wrong!

I'm gonna cry your jersey wet.

I have no one to blame, but myself.

Great!

Why me?

2011-01-10T01:17:00.002+08:00

ThisissowrongwhyamIwaitingforyoutocallwhenyoudon'tevencarethisissowrongwhywillIhurthimjust foryouthisisallsowrongdon'tfallformecauseI'mnotworthasshesaidyounevertrustedmeshe'souttherewaiting foryouIdon'twantthathistorytorepeatithinimgonnaquitthistimesohistorywonthapenagaini'mscaredbutyoucantunderstandhowmuchidowhyisitallmyfault?Iwannagetoutoffthismessweneverstartbutwe needtoendtellmethisisadreamwakemeup

Untitled

2011-01-09T22:30:00.003+08:00

Back in Kuching.
Life was really good until I saw you again.
But it's okay, God is always there for me.
I'm just gonna stand strong alone.

I don't understand
Why it has to be me every time
Why is it me being the bad girl
Why me.
I hate this life.
Jesus, please take away all my worries.

No one love me more than You my Lord.
I'm just gonna keep that in mind.

Everything's gonna be fine right?

xoxo
Summer

Thank you baby

2011-01-06T11:03:00.004+08:00

You said you're no longer my friend.
It hurts but as long as you're good, I'm fine.
All I can do is pray for you, a better life.
Without me, you'll be better.

Thank you for all the memories.
I'll keep the good ones and forget the bad ones.
Leaving the best in my heart.

For one last time,
' Baby, thank you for everything '

Now, It's over.

May God bless us .
Amen.

xoxo
Summer

2011 ♥

2011-01-02T21:46:00.000+08:00

It's 2011 now people! My new year eve was a great one, I mean an awesome one! Went to aunt's place for like only less than 30 mins? Headed off to Leonard's. Countdown with the peeps and what's my new year resolution? LOL Nothing much, when they started countdown, my heart beats faster, my hand gets cold, my brain went blank. A new year again, time passes so fast! And I ask myself, what do I wish for... It's YOU !

For these brand new year, no way I'm gonna be stupid, stubborn and lifeless again! I really need a life!

- Study well and pass my moral! so that I can get my ass off Kuching asap! (^^)
- Be myself!
- Serve God as my first priority.
- Work hard & help more people!

No way falling back to the 'me' in 2010/2009.
Summer, you boleh! Jia youuu!

^^
Hope you guys had a great time during New Year Eve! I did.

May God bless everyone a wonderful 2011, full of Joy! :D

xoxo
Summer

2010 is ending. :)

2010-12-30T21:50:00.004+08:00

Hello everyone.

I decided to update something here since 2010 is almost ending. 2010 has been really nice and challenging for me. It's fast too. In this year, I learned new stuffs, like the most recent one, swimming. And I believe people around who knows me for long can see there's a huge change in me. Becoming more quiet, and not humor as before and mature. That's rather a good or bad change, cause in this change, I may have lost something & in return gained another thing. SO it's how we see things that matters.

The most wonderful things that happened to me in life, first . JESUS CHRIST! Our GOD is Awesome. Also, giving the first priority in my life to God! This is my main aim in life now! Hereby, I wish everyone have a great New Year Eve tomorrow and God Bless Everyone.

xoxo
Angel

A memorable Xmas.

2010-12-26T18:28:00.005+08:00

It's Xmas, belated! HAHA! Was away for Xmas eve and Xmas, so yeah.. :D

Hope it wasn't to late to greet a Merry Christmas 2010 here! and *counting* 5 more days, brand new year, here I come! hee

Xmas eve. My beloved 'Bright' Sister's 16th Birthday! Celebrated at Excapade Seria branch at night. During the afternoon, we (siblings & mum) made yummy lunch! Of course, ingredients were bought the previous night from Supa Save. :D

Chicken Gordon Blu, I made. hehe yums!

We did this too. :d

My all time Fave! Salmon Sashimi! Mad LOVE!

At Bandar. 25th Dec. Xmas Lunch at Aunt's place. One of the fave, Lamb Shank! and there's Turkey~ Wedges~ Mashed Potatoes~ Beef~ *salivates*

Cousins and Me :D Merry Xmas. Ho Ho Ho!

Later, spent the rest of my Xmas with my friends. Overnight-ed at Times Hotel. I got myself a new set of bikini, Urban Decay Primer Potion and some goodies from Etude house too! hehe

What a great Xmas this year! Thank you darling for everything. She's my best sister ever! Altho, I'm kinda naive and stuborn. I think it's time to fix thing's up. I hope I can do it!

Today early morning, my face was still ==O & went to swim, but I learned something new too. A lil bit of swimming, thanks to Franz. One step nearer to being a Flight Attendant. :)

May God bless everyone!
5 more days to another brand new year!

xoxo
Angel

Helpless

2010-12-22T11:31:00.003+08:00

Helpless.
No one really understands me

There's no more reason to live.

xoxo
Angel

Lilupdate

2010-12-20T12:11:00.002+08:00

Hello readers,

I'm finally free to blog.Miss me? LOL So.. I was back from my China-KL trip last few days, been busy unpacking stuffs and sorting out photos (which i really dislike :S).

The trip was fun! and fattening. China's food culture is a no-no to me, it's way too oily! and now I've got myself a '+4cm' waistline, it's time to shake some fats off now for Christmas and New Year! Gambate~

I will be sharing some photos of my trip when I'm not lazy. LOL

So stay tuned~

xoxo
Angel

如果

2010-12-08T12:27:00.004+08:00

如果你不愛我為甚麼要吻我
如果你不愛我為甚麼要抱我
如果你不愛我為甚麼要傷我

若這一切都是我的錯
那請你告訴我要怎麼辦

IHTIMY

P/S: I'm flying off soon. Will be updating if I'm too bored while waiting for transit in KL.

God Bless.

xoxo
Angel

I waited

2010-12-04T19:36:00.002+08:00

Today
I was happy
My heart beats faster every second I waited
and in the end you left me
crying and praying.

xoxo
Angel

Nil

2010-12-03T18:59:00.003+08:00

I'm back in Brunei for like a few days. Things did not seem to go the way I thought. It was sad and heartbreaking, but I'm glad to have such a great bunch of family members. Miss them much. Still, I'm feeling quite empty.

I suddenly recalled what Alicia told me when I was in Kuching. Emptiness is scary enough to kill oneself. It's true but I'm strong, yeah I think. I guess I've kept too much inside, and realizing there's no one who will listen anymore. May Jesus open up my heart someday. Amen.

Being ignored, perhaps it's another lesson for me to learn.

For the time being, I'm confused.
I know what I want but I'm not brave enough to try.

Everyone has their own life, where's mine?
I don't understand.
This kind of feeling is...

I don't know how to express.

Hello tears, one again.

p/s: This post was supposed to be about sth else, and it turns out to be something stupid.

xoxo
Angel

...

2010-12-02T21:12:00.003+08:00

Finally I'm admitting
I cant believe what I'm saying.
I'm really jealous? I am
F*ck that jealousy!

and I feel like crying
Shoo this undesirable feeling.

Tell me what you're thinking
Tell me that we're possible.

xoxo
Angel

Sad Max

2010-11-29T23:44:00.001+08:00

I'm VERY SADDDDD! T.T
I'm so down down down down down ~~

because I'm leaving baby for a month again, tomorrow.

xoxo
Angel

Halloween ?

2010-10-31T00:32:00.007+08:00

Hello Everyone!

It's Halloween! What's your greatest fear? What do you dream to be ? It's a day to be one! hehe

29th of October, my uni had organize a Halloween night (Advanced), everyone dressed up with blood everywhere while I pampered myself with a 'Mermaid Look'. I didn't get to snap detail photo of the glittery scales on my face and the make up details. :(SAD! Also, I made up a 'Leopard Look' for my friend. My first try doing this kind of fantasy makeup and I'm happy that i made it worked! my friend have a zoom in shot of her leopard look, I'll see when I can share it here. ^^

I bought this Trail kit few days ago. It's a somesort face-slimming product. V-shape lifting, I hope my face can fast fasy be V too. LOL Btw, the Face Lifting Cream did make my face feels warm and lil bit itchy after applying. :)

Been busy with my Assignment these days, due on Monday! Which is Tomorrow. T.T I haven't finish yet!

Oh ya!
I watched 'Rise Of The Mummy' already at MBO on the day it is released itself (28th of Oct) with baby, Kor and Jie. It was a pretty nice movie! I'm not bored at all watching this movie, really unexpected cause I thought it's boring. :S Overall, a very interesting movie. ^^

It's getting late now
but not sleeping yet, wanna play game now. hehe

xoxo
Angel

Myst Cafe & SUMMER Shopping Mall

2010-10-25T20:58:00.003+08:00

Tonight, baby and I went to Myst Cafe which is located at 101 Kuching for dinner and chilling~ Honestly speaking, when this cafe first opens up, it did not give me a good impression because of it's dull design. Basically, i feel lost looking it from outside, it looks like a maze? ==

But after sometime, I found out it is opened by one of my friend. >.< And my other friends who had dine there gave me coupons telling me that their food are nice.

So yes, finally I had a chance to step inside today. And their food and atmosphere did impressed me. Baby and I had Shepard's Pie with Mushroom chicken, Potato cups and their Wintergreen Ice-cream dessert. I love their Potato Cups! So effing delicious lah~ :p

P/s: Sorry, I cant upload any photos now yet, :( but i will after i got myself a new memory card reader.

By the way, SUMMER shopping mall will be in Kuching soon! I saw their banner past few days and I was surprised because of the name (It's my name!) LOL but I don't think I see any construction yet, except for the new City1 by Kenbest Sdn Bhd.

Kuching is getting better and so do Brunei and Miri. The so-called Time square and also Merdeka Mall. Havent been any of them lo. haha. No sad cause I bet most of the shop lots are empty yet.

Im getting fat now. T.T
cause I cant hold my craves.

haha random

xoxo
Angel

♥ New skin & 20102010 ♥

2010-10-20T23:13:00.008+08:00

My blog's having a NEW skin! I'm happy with it~ Hope you guys will like it's new look too. ^^ I love Pink! ♥

Today is another special day with a unique date. The date is 20.10.2010 = 20102010 ! Also the 21st month since baby and I were together! What a memorable date. hehe :D

BUT it was a busy day too :(
Although my class was canceled today.

Around 2.30, I went for Marketing discussion with Alven and others about our presentation tomorrow. I don't think I'm prepared yet so we're going to discuss again tomorrow morning before our presentation. phew~ >.<

I had a Bridal Interview at 4 today too. It's located at somewhere near Travilion. I was then asked to present an actual day bridal makeup and hairdo. Everything went well. Thank you Jesus for preparing this for me and I'm in! ^^ Just need to wait for the next meeting about the working hours.

Around 6.30, I left the bridal with baby and realizing I'm late for work ! My class starts at 7, usually I need to be there and prepare the notes 30 minutes before. Unfortunately, after I went in the car, it starts to rain (considering lucky too cause I'm not caught in the rain). Plus, having traffic jam at that time from Travilion to my workplace! O.O Arrived there at 7 sharp.

I'm obviously so late.
And I'm SoOoo Hungry cause I haven't eaten the whole day.
Thank you baby who gets wet taking away dinner for me.
I ate fast fast in car while baby's driving and had green tea too!

Today's class with my students were fun!
^^

I appreciate every little things that happened today.
Thank you Jesus.

xoxo
Angel

Summary of 2 weeks.

2010-10-17T23:18:00.003+08:00

My blog had once again became o 'mushroom' blog~ T.T
Neglecting too much and I'm lazy to blog every single day out now. hehe :p

Let's say about my 10.10.10 then, what did you guys do to make this special day memorable? For me, I only remember that I went for dinner at Sharing planet with my friends (3 couples). Baby say he want to eat their food there and we saw Alven too~ ^^ We took a lot of funny photos but I cant upload them~ T.T cause I lost my card reader (which is so important & already been with me for so so long time liao d. :( )

This week - Usual :D Monday and Tuesday class very full. Wednesday, and Thursday, only have one class and for the rest I did my Marketing reports and did a lot of DIY stichings and working. My weekends, a lot of DIY stichings and watching movie at baby's and window shopping. And baby and I went to watch ' The Child's Eye ' on Saturday night at 10.45pm (sempat lagi i buy poporn from magic bite as baby know I like it, so we went earlier before they close :dd).

FYI, I never ever watch scary/ghost movies because I think watching movie that scare yourself is something stupid to do. If Rainie Yang is not acting inside, I wont watch lah, or u can say I only watch her scenes (without scary things) and for the rest of the movie my eyes are closeD! LOL and I ada bite&cubit my baby without noticing == I was frightened by their sound effects. But Nice movie lah. I mean the story line and everything. xD Baby say next week go watch 'The switch' and ' Perfect Wedding ' and I cant wait for Harry Potter! on the 18th of November too~ ^^

Everything are great ~
My life's good.
I'm being optimistic like always.

^^
Hope everyone have a wonderful life~

Cheers!

xoxo
babyWern

愛人 ?

2010-10-11T23:18:00.002+08:00

親愛的

我發現
我不懂你
很多時候
我不曉得
真正的你
是個怎樣的人。。

在你還沒遇見我
你那二十一年是怎麼過的
很多時候你會告訴我
但我想我所知道的並不是全部
我不想再去猜測
我難過
我要不想想
確無人能體會
我是多沒希望你我從小就認識了
哈哈突然覺得自己寫得有點可笑
唉！

愛人愛人
我怎能不認識你呢？

xoxo
babyWern

My Firday & Saturday~

2010-10-02T23:15:00.003+08:00

^^ I love weekends!

Yesterday, Friday. Had Food n Beverage 2 class at Hilton and it's Test 2, practical. The question want us to serve bread rolls, beverage and main course, with different standards. There's 4 pax, they ordered different things, lucky thing I did not serve them the wrong food, but I did mistake while serving the main course. == sigh! Stayed in hostel for the whole afternoon until evening, watching PS nan :) It was GOOD. ^^ At night, baby brought me out for dinner, we had laksa at BDC, to safe cost. After makan, went to Spring and I help Diane love to buy her Hello Kitty mascara (while stocks last cause left 2 only @.@).

And OH! I watched Piranha. And EWWWW~ I felt my food coming up my throat-vomits! Eww those bloody scenes. Horrible!

Today is a happy day! Had Test 2 again at Hilton on Commercial Producution. Before that, I went to Hi-Bread for breakfast with my friends and baby. I had smoke Salmon + fresh milk this time, and it was pretty tasty! Yumms!

Around 4 in the afternoon, went to tHe Spring as I wanted to help my friends to register a slimming program at the roadshow there (1st Oct~3rd Oct). I got to know about this when I went to shop there yesterday night, and also from October's Seventeen Mag (my must buy! x) ). While I got myself 2 eyeshadows that I really adore and wanting, from the brand Kose. :D Mad happy! Cause I got them at a super cheap price. hehe. Saw Joycelyn there too, and gave her a ride to Kpj for visiting.

At night, helped ah jie to tie her hair and we went to Sophia's Birthday Party at D-eleven. It was a blast! So many funny things happened. HAHA! Michelle was super funny, and we played Truth or Dare. The whole place is filled with our annoying laughters i bet. LOL. Baby and I left around 10 cause it's getting late and tomorrow we still need to go church very early. Baby is playing guitar for the PnW.

Pictures cant be uploaded! T.T
I've tried many times until I already finish typing ==

I'm stopping here, i might edit this post with photos when I'm free.
Stay tune!

Tata~

xoxo
babyWern

Multiple Updates~

2010-09-26T23:00:00.003+08:00

23rd of September

On Thursday, I attended Marketing 2 class at 12pm - 2pm, and for the rest of the day I have to stay in the room while waiting baby to finish his class at 4! Kesian him. Every Wednesday & Thursday his schedule is very full while I'm so eng~ hehe. I think I finished the movie 'Prince' on that day. It was pretty nice! And now I'm starting with another series, ' PS nan '. The model I like got act inside! hehe. It's a girl btw, not the guys (not my type :p).

At night, baby brought me out to eat. We can't decide where to eat and lastly we went to eat at Jln Song's Peach Garden. And I don't know what to eat cause i don't feel like eating altho i did not eat for the whole day. So I asked for char kueh, not too light ; not too heavy. Baby had Penang prawn mee (not nice at all, both look and taste, but so expensive). Without asking me, baby ordered Lamb Curry Rice for me! Fattening night. & Yes, I love lamb! :D

Char Kueh orde eat half way~ haha xD

24th of September

Hilton class = Early! our class starts at 9.30 but have to wake up at 7 -7.30 because inti's bus leave at 8.15am plus the bus driver never wait! @.@ I usually failed to wake up at 7, until 7.30 i baru start nervous then get up! My alarm no use one cause I never hear it rings, sampai I need to ask my roomate whether my alarm rang eveytime. haha. That friday, baby and i followed our friend's car to hilton so I need not to wake up too early and go Hilton tunggu lagsat~

Had green tea in the morning, my love as always since secondary. (right darling? hehe) but I prefer 'Heaven & Earth Green Tea' so much! Which Malaysia don't have and I always have to ask my mum kirim them to me.

Saw this uper steady car (BMW) around Hilton there, in front of 7-eleven. See~~ BMW has a bandage! ==* Next time can do this to your car if you want to save cost. lol

That day Inti has an exhibition (which I don't know), I was just back from Hilton that time and I saw many booth at the walking space. Then I kena pull here and there by my friends from different booth to join their clubs. ==* Baby's mum went to Sibu today, so baby need to send her to airport at 6.45pm, after that baby just come fetch me and we had porridge for dinner at BDC. Not so tasty. 101 there offers the best porridge if compared.

25th of September

Saturday~ We went to the Spring and i forgot what I bought~? then we went to One Jaya too, many nice outfits but I did not buy because I feel like it's a waste. But I bought a compact powder which Kevin 老师 introduced because I've finished my previous compact powder and I used my loose pewder instead for quite a long time. But I don't adore the over powdery feel it gives so i need a new compact powder. This new one is very light looking and natural, plus very portable. :)

In the afternoon, went to Swinburne's Carnival with friends and it was hell boring~ :( Kuching sibeh boring! sighs

Finally today! 26th of September

It's a Sunday! Today early morning baby brought me to Hi-Bread for breakfast again, as promised. Raymond followed us too as he wanted to taste their food. I had Tuna Sandwich today & a glass of orange juice for breakfast, while baby had chicken de. I think tuna sandwich is not too worth to eat because we can do it ourselves at home, but not their bun! I love their bun, so soft and nice. :)

After that we went off and suddenly saw a guy laying on the floor of Marina Lounge (outside), we think it's weird so we drove over to see if he's okay. The guy was don't know doing what but i can see that he's actually laying on his own vomit! I don't know how to help him as Raymond say better not go down, and I don't know if he's sleeping or what, cause he look a bit uncomfy. :S So I asked baby to call police/ambulance, unfortunately, we don't really know the contact number! But we still made the call. In the end, that guy was fine so we left.

People who drinks/clubs very often. Don't drink too much until drunk o~
Dangerous~ Not good for health~
And won't solve problem somemore wor~

^^

Hope everyone can have a healthy life~
Including myself! :D

xoxo
babyWern

Mid-Autumn Festival

2010-09-22T23:33:00.006+08:00

Today is mid-autumn festival. Another year, celebrating without my family. :( I went out with baby in the afternoon and had lunch at '外婆's Bah Kut Teh! This is our second time there, cause their bak kut teh quite nice.Then went to the Spring and One Jaya, and I bought my new lens. hehe. I think Blincon Sweetie Blue is very nice. I love it, so no need buy from internet already since optic shop got sell the one I like. :D

My 3 layer tea & baby's fresh lime. :F
Bah Kut Teh for lunch! xd

My mid-autumn festival look ^^
I love my shoe laces! Pink! hehe

At night, we actually wanted to go 'Friendship Park' after our church dinner.
But too many cars, no parking so baby bring me to eat 'Fried Ice-cream' at Toast Bar. :D
I ordered Yam flavor and it's very nice! yumms~

The yam (yums :)) fried ice-cream with choco syrup and sprinkled nuts.

And I also bought 'Jelly Mooncake' in mango&green tea flavor from the Lato cafe. (If im not mistaken, cause i din concentrate on their name but on their mooncake!) xD

These are the Jelly Mooncakes! They tasted quite okay, at least not too sweet. If you see my nails, this is a fast 10 minutes nail art I did on Monday. I was watching "王子遇見二公主" alone in the room.

He took me, I took you! hehe Gotcha! My baby so cute. ^^p Get well soon o dear~

Happy Mooncake Festival Everyone!
Hope you guys had a great day with your family!

God Bless!

xoxo
babyWern

Rainy Sunday.

2010-09-19T13:15:00.003+08:00

Considering myself lucky, I'm not caught in the rain. If it was a second earlier, my boyfriend and I will be wet like no tomorrow. It's a Sunday today, pretty bright sun in the morning, my boyfriend and I went to have our breakfast at 'HI-Bread Kopitiam' around 10.30am. Awesomeness! I'm totally liking and loving their sandwiches and breakfast set! How I hope I can try all of their sandwiches. Can't wait for the next visit, will ask my friends to go cause they are 'yums!' xD

I had Chicken Paprika and orange juice, while baby had smoke beef with his choice of cheese, bread, sauce and veges inside! They have like 1,2,3,4,5,6..types of sauce! I also took away a custard with me before we left, the custard was just okay, I think 'Yeow Kee's' custard tasted better. BUT baby learns how to eat custard from here! Like finally? He likes 'Hi-bread's', we obviously have different taste buds. HAHA!

After that we went to one jaya, and luckily I did not have cash with me, and all of the shop that I want to buy things from don't provide card services! Yay! I'm not spending today.

And there's a something like food fair at Tun Jugah. Named, Little Penang.It's only available from 17th Sept until 21 Oct if not mistaken. (I lupa orde) Gonna try it out soon, I like 'Penang Char Kueh Tiaw', hope have lah, cause we're just driving by just now.

I'm so freezing cold now~ Rain Rain Rain.Thunder thunder thunder. A nice afternoon to sleep.

Hope everyone have a nice day !

xoxo
babyWern

Baby's 23rd Birthday

2010-09-16T23:34:00.005+08:00

Hehe. It's the boyfriend's birthday today. Just came back from the birthday celebration at D-eleven with our friends.

Having ice-cream at D11~ Yumm choco baby!

Countdown at Paragon~ 15th September~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BABY!
Love you dear dear~ hehe

You love me, I love You! Thank you for everything!

I gave him a pair of white pants as his Bday present this year.
Yeah, he's wearing it during his big day~

God bless us~
May baby's dreams come true!

xoxo
babyWern

It's one happy day out.

2010-09-07T19:21:00.004+08:00

Yay! Uploading went well today. And it's another happy day today. Just now in the afternoon, Bryan, Tian Tian, Rose, me and baby went out. We at first went to the airport as Bryan had an interview at the Starbucks at 1pm. The remaining of us went for KFC while waiting. Then we went bank and many other places before ending at tHe Spring. Kuching is way too boring, no other places to go, so decided to go watch movie.

Shopping and we went to see see look look some beauty products and perfumes. Goodness! I fell for these 2 perfumes : YSL's Young Sexy Lovely & Sean John's I am King. Super nice!

All of us fell for this. Really nice and it's unisex. The other one is for man - Unforgivable
VERY MANLY. :D

This will be the one I plan to buy first. Love the smell. $.$

We ate a lot today btw, I ate Big apples *peace*& Sugarbun ice-cream. SWEET gives me Fats. :( Nvm lah. Despite being fat, I got myself another thingy from MAC, their lipcolor which I wanted for a long time already. I like Pretty Please and Pet me, please, but till the end I picked Pet Me, please beacause it is limited edition. I'll get Cherish or Angel (mentioned earlier) next time, these 2 are more to the pinkie nude color. Whereas, Pretty please and Pet me, please are pale nude. Tian Tian and Rose also got themselves a lipcolor each.

:)

Pet me, please
*More details in the upcoming updates.*

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WEE~Hot red lips! Tian Tian and I love it, which surprised me cause not much people like RED lips. Bryan, baby and Rose were horrified. They say look like Japan old lady. T__T

And I've got myself one nail color from The Face Shop. Finally, I'm willing to buy one, I became so kedekut now. Not a good thing, think too much when want something. Even little things. D:
Becoming crazy.

Overall, today is a good day.
Cheers~

xoxo
babyWern

Finally, my turn.

2010-09-06T19:41:00.004+08:00

Hello dearest!

I wanted to share some photos but blogger had some problem/error uploading them. I've tried many times and now i gave up. So let's do reading. HEHE

I'm having Raya holiday now, a week. And today, the first day itself I'm already getting bored. :( I want to go home so badly, to finish up all my reports in my OWN room! How will that feels like? hmm. I miss those time back in Secondary when I hit my Biology, Amaths exercises, Chemistry reports, Physics calculations and looking at my pretty decorated wall in front of my seat. How nice can that be. BUT, ticket terlalu expernsive if I book now, Rm 700, I rather get myself some limited MAC eye pigments, Lancomes, Mosshino's Funny, a pair of Charles&Keith, a spa, and everything to pamper myself. SUSHI! Mad love.

HAHA. Enough of dreaming. I should get my ass back to the assignments and reports. Dealing with the cheesy stuffs, headpain! and menus and essays and reports. No way, i need motivations. Sushis, Starbucks and some big apple donuts will do. Weee~

Bah. I need to go and get something to eat. I'm hungry, when I'm not supposed to be. I just had a whole bowl of 'Zhao Cai Mi Fen' from tHe Spring at 3 before movie. Oh yeah! Movie! I watched STEP UP 3 already! FINALLY! And it's Super AWESOME. You know, I love dance. I feel good when I dance, and I love myself more when Im dancing.

Stay tune people~

xoxo
babyWern

Everyone can read.

2010-09-04T22:56:00.003+08:00

Today was a pretty tiring day. Had early morning class, and it's test today. FYI, I did not study. :D
I thought I can wake up early to read through but too bad, I'm a sleeping queen/pig as they said. The class was usually 9am, but who knows Mr Salim says test start at 12pm. ==* I don't like waiting langsat, at Hilton especially. Sigh. Thinking positively, I was able to study for the test since I'm given ample of time. lala~ and I think I can score like 80? *Pray hard*

After test, left Hilton and play dota. At night, went out with baby, Ray, Sam & his gf, Hannah for dinner. We went to Satok pasar malam too, cause Samuel's just back from UK and he had been craving for Ampang Balik from Kuching. LOL Then after that we went to Boulevard, which was quite boring but nevermind, see see look look and had mango pudding! :D Yums.

I'm STRESS now, maybe a month. Because I failed to lose weight and diet. T____T VERY SAD!
I need some help, my tummy getting bigger and bigger due to not proper eating and I did not workout for a month already. I used to do sit ups and streching everyday. :( And now I can feel that my back fats are growing! T___T

AHHHHHH!
I don't want to eat.

No.
I don't want my fats.
I love food. D:

xoxo
babyWern

Dreams

2010-09-01T15:00:00.002+08:00

Since when
I started to have these dreams.
I wonder
Why do I have these dreams.

I wasn't sad during the day or night.
My boyfriend didn't cheat on me
He did not make me sad or horrified
We are great and fine.

But I had these dreams
Inside, I struggled..I collapsed..
Inside the dreams, unexpected things happened.
He gave up on me..no matter what I do.

Everything seems to be so perfect in reality
But I have these dreams.
Am I actually worried or I love him more than I myself know
I think inside the dream, I'm afraid of losing him.
Which I refused that I am in reality.

Gosh, what's happening?
This afternoon, I was in bed.
I'm thinking and considering our relationship
I started measuring it.
It's crazy that what I did.

I tried to let my emotions out every time.
But I can't cry, I hardly squeeze tears out of my eyes.

xoxo
babyWern

Happy day.

2010-08-25T22:54:00.002+08:00

I'm mad happy today. :D Before we went out just now, I was fb-ing and found 4-in-love's MV. It was like 'n' years ago when I last listen to that song. Baby knows how to song it too and we turned out slow dancing in the room. He said, "有太多钱的男人不好, 可以在外面养很多女人哦 ; 我这种男人没有很多钱 , 最怕的是老婆不要我. " Awww, I don't know where my tears come from that time, i cried, with joy. :) ♥

My cup of tea ♥

We went to ' Taiwan 小粥 ' for dinner just now. I'm mad happy because I had a very satisfying dinner today. I feel very healthy, at least there's some place I can go once in awhile when I miss home cook dishes. The price is very affordable too.

* Before that, we actually wanted to go Fusion cafe for dinner, but we only see empty chairs and tables when passing by ; so we decided to go Taiwan since it was closed when we saw last time, unbelievable crowd we saw while passing by then we say ' Wah, 将多人一定很好吃的好哦! '. This is a wayhow most of the consumer thinks. :D Got crowd, sure good, no crowd, sure bad.

Then we went to tHe Spring to check out some movies. Finally! Tomorrow's the day Step up 3D is out in the cinema! Mad happy! And also Phua Chu Kang the movie. Can't believe time pass so fast. I was like still nagging when is the 26th, why so slow one then now it's like tomorrow. :D Can't wait.

I love dance.
As usual. :)

xoxo
babywern

Sem 6

2010-08-17T22:05:00.002+08:00

Back for an update.
BOOO! It was 12345678910 days ago when I last hit my own blog. Privated it makes me feel not motivated to update it because hey! Why waste my time typing when you're not sharing? blahs. Welcome those who are reading, you know who you are. :)

Okay, life was busy and fun. Charity night was finally over last week, and it was a great one. All efforts are worth, everything turns out to be fantastic. Today, I'm in the 3rd week of my number 6th semester, things went well, thank God that I need not to deal with clashes like all the others. My second last sem, it's time to crack my head thinking where I should head for to do my industrial training next year. T.T Decisions again, I don't like it really! D:

Been watching Grey's Anatomy and I'm only in season 2. It was nice. Before this I was watching a HK movie - Mysteries of Love. by Raymond Lam! VERY NICE! hehe. I love HK movies. And and yeah, I've nothing much to say now. Maybe I have but they are not important anymore.

So I'll stop here
and I'm so freakishly tired yet I have a case study to finish for tomorrow's discussion.
Alven~ don't kill me. I'm just using Invisible Ink, you'll see the words if you're under a blue moon. I really need a nice rest. :(

xoxo
babyWern

Weird

2010-07-29T18:47:00.003+08:00

Life's in Kuching is pretty boring too. Everyday eat, sleep and online/movie. == I've arrived here since Tuesday and the first place I went was The Spring. Happy to see baby btw~ He's still...CUTE! I bought nothing I guess, only a facial cleanser from The Nature Republic for baby. Gawd! Spring is way too bored. Checked out some shoes from Charles & Keith, no doubt that I will be getting one soon. MAC's lipstick in Angel and Cherish! Have been wanting them since March~ havent get one thou. Still considering.

The next day, baby and I went for movie, Inception. Supposed to be watching Street Dance, but we're too late. sigh. Anyway, I'm more excited for 'Step Up 3' ! Oh ya! I've got my order from Alysha yesterday too, before our movie. The dress is only Rm 35, and the quality is good~ hee. Wearing them tonight! Going 175 degree cafe to chill~ and maybe some window shopping or not. i might be buying something.

So, now my blog is privated.
It feels a bit weird.
I will get back to this decision soon,
to publisize it or not.
Alicia and the others were right too.

xoxo
babywern

Our God is awesome

2010-07-24T18:40:00.003+08:00

BooHooo! Another day is almost gone. Staying at home and it feels good. I'm definitely going to miss home after going back to Kuching next week. Thinking positively, I can stop myself from gaining weight too when I'm off. Right, this morning I went for my dentist appointment at the hospital for scaling. OUCH okay? It massively hurts. The dentistS look so cruel, I'm in pain okay and it's bleeding. *cries* When I was lying there, I closed my eyes praying to God. Thanks Jesus! and of course the dentist, I have plaque-free teeth now. I was never afraid of going to dentists instead, i like it cause I love my teeth, especially when they look good. Oh well, who doesn't like smiling with brilliant teeth! :D Perhaps, maybe, this time was the first time I went scaling again after delaying it for a year plus. Because I wasn't in Brunei or I don't have the time, like last year's holiday when baby came Brunei too.

Mood had been swinging quite a lot these days, or maybe a week. But being strong, I hold everything inside, letting the feeling to 'poof' off itself which turned out not. The worst part was that I myself don't even know what's my problem that caused this. sigh. Just a few hours before, a feeling to pray was so strong. I, then locked the door of my room and play some christian songs from my hand phone. Before I even start to pray, the presence of God is so strong that I couldn't control my tears flowing out my eyes. I felt comforted when crying, I eventually spoke to him, I can feel Him watching at me with His graceful eyes just right in front of me. Thank you Jesus for carrying away my worries and curse today! amen. Our God is Awesome~!

Gonna take my dinner and set myself in front of the TV for the Astro Talent Show, Final! ^^

P/s: I've found Jaeson Ma's blog from Van Wu's, and I've linked them up. Read their experiences with God. :D

God bless!

xoxo
babyWern

Finally, an update.

2010-07-23T21:28:00.006+08:00

Hello readers~ LONG time, really long time.
I'd not been here to update you guys.

I'm currently still in Brunei, wasting most of my time being a Princess. Good one, not demanding ones. But home just make me feels like a princess. Peace! Met some of my friends in Brunei, especially the gathering that darling prepared for me. I came to realize that old friends are the best, no matter how long, how far we'd been apart, we can still get on the same track when we meet again. I love everyone in my life, what's life when you don't learn to love with a sincere heart? Friends are like little diamonds i treasure, without them is like roti kahwin without kaya. Weird comparison i know. Saying things another way round, bad things happened too. I mean like when there's good then there's always a bad side. People who are jealous of what you have, or people who came in from no where just feeling bored and wanted to see you defeated, maybe? Am I right? or I'm thinking too negatively? Take note, I don't want to be offending, my apologies. Alright, no gossips. I dislike.

Getting on with my life, I bought clothes I've been wanting, asked my mum to make me some more outfits and I love it! and I've got myself some stocks up for my mini mart in my hostel, new spectacles by Mashimaro, new lens, skin foods, but giving up my most wanting stuff which are the Adidas sport shoes in pink and lavender stripes, very nice but I might not be needing them. Might be getting some inner wear tomorrow. Oh goodness, I've just realized that I'm bringing quite a lot of stuffs from Brunei back to Kuching.

Enough of craps. It was out of my expectations, I accidentally clicked on Esther's(my church friend) blog and I read it on the spot without any thought. It's like a reminder from God about my spiritual life which is still keeping a pace slacking down every single day when others fall but getting back immediately & growing up. I don't know what to say, I feel sorry and sad thus not brave enough to seek for Him anymore. It's been a really long time, for months since my birthday/the youth camp. I was broken down by God, a punishment from him because of one wrong decision. This camp is actually very important for our youth's spiritual growth, also making the relationships between the youths closer. FYI, the camp is like for 4 days 3 nights, and basically we spend all the time together. Anyhow, I chose not to go when I can actually attend it. Just because the camp falls on the same day as my b'day, I decided not to go. I can feel how my life turns a little rotten after that decision, the impact on my life is so big.-I've mentioned it in my previous post "I'm back", wordings in blue- For now I'll say, I'd regret so much.

One thing we have to know.
He has the power to build our spirit up if we believe and obeys His words.
Also, He has the power to break us down until when we finally know how much we need Him again.

No more slacking down!
Summer! you have to really get yourself back into The BIG Family!
Hallelujah~ Praise the Lord.

Thank you Jesus, I've passed my Law today.
Thank you Jesus, you thought me how to forgive like how you'd forgive my sins.
Thank you Jesus for not giving up me. Amen~

xoxo
babyWern

Missing you already!

2010-07-10T23:41:00.002+08:00

Sorry for the hiatus people~

Was pretty busy.
I will blog a real post when I get back Brunei tomorrow or maybe someday.
At his place, thinking I should post something this last day here before next semester starts.

~~~~

This few days, baby and I felt down~
3 weeks, I'm leaving him all alone.
Left him with some of my pillows and our kuma-kuma that he bought for me last year. I usually bring kuma back but I'm letting him to have it this time. :)
sigh.
Time really flies, but when baby's not around. A minute feels like a year. T.T
I will be missing you too~

Today,
We went out again. Baby brought me for shopping in the afternoon while we sleep the whole morning off, but I'm pretty glad that I didn't spend at the Malls. At night, just now he brought me to dinner at ' Sharing Planet ', it was around 8.30+, pretty late. We saw Alven! ^^
Baby and I had a great dinner there. The food there was delicious!! I had " grilled lamb shoulder ", Lamb is my all time fave ma! and baby had something grilled chicken with turkey and cheese like that, what supreme thang, I forgot already~ But he said it was very nice too!

Later when we are in the car, I wanted to pee suddenly. and I was pretty annoying (i guess?)cause I said " I want pee! I want Fourpoint's Toilet! " HAHA! crazy enough. and baby sot with me too. He really brought me to a hotel's loo. :D He's such a sweet and cute thing. He did so many cute things today again, that had really made me love him more and more everyday. He's basically tooooooo cute to lose~ hehe. Love you baby!

Good time always pass fast. :(
He's now sleeping soundly there.
I'm so gonna miss this cute face~
T.T

Sigh, I'll be stopping here. It's late and I have a flight to catch (not) tomorrow morning!

xoxo
babywern

幸福不是必然

2010-06-30T23:16:00.005+08:00

~ ♥一个人 ~

✿ 要了解，也要开解；
　　❀ 要道歉，也要道谢；
　　✿ 要认错，也要改错；
　　❀ 要体贴，也要体谅；
　　✿ 是接受，而不是忍受；
　　❀ 是宽容，而不是纵容；
　　✿ 是支持，而不是支配；
　　❀ 是慰问，而不是质问；
　　✿ 是倾诉，而不是控诉；
　　❀ 是难忘，而不是遗忘；
　　✿ 是彼此交流，而不是凡事交代；
　　❀ 是为对方默默祈求，
　　✿ 而不是向对方诸多要求；
　　❀ 可以浪漫，但不要浪费。

兩個人的相遇不是件容易的事
能尋找到一顆真心
更要懂得
去珍惜
去把握

我和他的相遇，
讓我們撞見了幸福，
也讓我們碰上了釘子，
我們體會了不曾有的感受；
雖然曾經很痛苦
但憑著對比此の信任與肯定
沒有放棄彼此
才有今天的快樂。

幸福不是必然
這世界上沒有所謂理所當然的幸福！

　♥ 不要随便牵手，
　　更不要随便放手♥ ~!

願全天下的人都能夠找到屬於自己的幸福哦！
嘻嘻 ~ ♥♥♥ ^^

xoxo
babywern

The Light

2010-06-28T15:30:00.004+08:00

Life gets tough
When friends come and go
When all we can see are disappointments
When we distrust Love

I used to believe in Love
I used to be optimistic
I used to be happy
and nothing could have change my smile

But I'm not anymore the kind of girl
Who knows how to appreciate
Who knows how to love
Who once can be like an angel

Every pretty side has a dark side of them
Now what I can see is only the darker side

What can we believe
When friends you trusted hurt you
When you stared to think
What is Love?
Where is Love?
When you started to not believe there's Love.

Even the person you treated well with a true heart
Can be the person who tear you apart ;
Even the person who treated you so good
Can be the person who actually stabbed you at the back.

Why?!
Who can I believe.

Although life's getting tough
I thanked God because deep inside I know He will always be there.

When all the doors of hope are closed,
He will always keep a window open.
Where we can search for The light to guide us, Jesus Christ
God is Love, God gives hope.

xoxo
babywern

I hope
I can gain back the gut to search for him

Caffe cino.

2010-06-27T22:18:00.005+08:00

Bye Bye week 6 and Week 7 is coming~
Week 8 will be our Final Week, which is a weeks after? Final final final, I'm gonna beat you down..maybe. sigh. Leaving Kuching real soon, baby sangat emotional, what I can do is accompany him more, more, more.. bla bla. ignore my poor English, I'm influenced by the English people speaks here (not all of them).

Finally I had the time to transfer some photos to my macbook. Decided to share them~ So yeah..Here goes.

The night at his place after meeting Chester and some friends. We went dinning with them, we went 'check in' for some shot later too. Baby and I left earlier cause we're having class the next day. It was this week's Wednesday.

Baby's injured toe. Bye bye flesh and skin. He says they really hurts but..(see the next picture)

He still can laugh like that. Cause I curi take photos while helping him to wash the wound and I was laughing. He then tries to poke me with his awful bolster. HAHAH! That's why I said 'it's laughable' in my previous post. It's not that I'm evil lah. LOL

Our FnB Management class was canceled that day. Happy ! HAHA! So we went out to McD and had some yummy burgers and fries, and I was craving for sweet foods like dessert pretty much this week. So I've got myself their Sundae, and I think pineapple's tastes better than Mango's.

Cake from caffecino! xD! I've been wanting them since last week. I've got myself a Chocolate Truffle that day. Fattening man. Then baby bought me another cake from B!ng the next day, my fave- Brownies. Only B!ng's. They taste good.Chocolate Truffles.
Then finally, my crave for sweet foods are gone since then! Reason one, I had enough, reason two, I'm getting fatter. Y.Y

So, I was having Basic Cookery class yesterday as I've told you guys. We made bread that day. Fun part>> One of our friend hid inside the 'don know what thing, fridge?' , changing his clothes. And I told King (below), he went @.@ and laughed out so loud.

My friend inside, and someone locked him inside. HAHA!

Our Wholemeal bread, tasted good.

Saturday, after class, baby brought me out for movie. Before that, I went back hostel for shower, oily kitchen doesn't smell good at all bah. We watched ' Toys Story 3'. Yay! Like finally. The movie starts at 5.15. It was 3.30 when we bought the tickets, so baby decided to go Satok to pick up some local foods. Yes. Fats again! Y.Y

Hehe. Got this picture for my mum, because of the name. Baby was surprised when I told him Flora's my mum's nickname. LOL.

Then today, we went boulevard for my brunch. I was working for Inti's Open day in the morning so I missed my breakfast. There's many many people today, we first went to The Spring but too many car, the weather is so hot so we ended up not going there. Boulevard also have the same crowd, but we manage to get a parking place at the basement. Really thank you God. ^^

And we just found out that there's an event going on there. Saw 3 My Fm's DJ and Kiong with his dancers. Pictures below. ^^ Got many other dance performances, not really into sexy dance moves anymore, but dances like popping, locking, breaking and Latin can really catch my attention.

That's all!

Getting back to my series & will be on phone soon.

xoxo
babywern

^^.

2010-06-25T22:20:00.005+08:00

Hello readers,

So, here goes another day. Today was pretty simple and fun. Had 'FnB Management Test 2' at Hilton today. Didn't really touched my book until this morning. I think I did bad btw. *cries* Really need to put a lot of efforts for the finals! Gambateh neh~ ! :D Gonna start studying real soon, finals are just in another 2 weeks time. I'm gonna crack my head and stuff all them into my brain, hopes my brain won't freeze this turn. *cross fingers*

Around 4 or 4 something, went back to baby's place. And the first thing I do is ... (haha) get back to my series in the room. I took sometime turning on my laptop and playing back my movie to the last part I watched. Then baby told me that his parents are asking us to prepare the dinner for tonight. I went ~ ^^ > =.= > D: > :(.. I wanna watch movie mo. But it was fun preparing dishes in the kitchen with baby. Baby made chores! He's pretty good in making that but I love him to bits, still. Cute! He duper love cooking. ♥

While we're still having troubles in deciding what to cook inside the kitchen, baby's dad came in and suggested "LAMB chop!" Yumm~ My fave! Baby knew that too so he agrees. Then his dad drove us to buy those ingredients needed. And we finally done our Lamb Chop with my specially made sauce, plus mashed potatoes, well seasoned. Baby's parents like the food, his dad even said that we can opened up a restaurant. ^^ Everyone were happy :D

Can't wait to go back Brunei noh. I wanna prepare for my family too! Have been thinking about it for quite a long time already. hee! ^^

Today, while chatting with my friends, Alven and I kinda have the same subject on. We're thinking where to go after this Diploma, I wanna leave Inti asap. (shhh) I'm thinking to go for my further Industrial Training in KL then later, either going into the 'Culinary Art' field or ' Event Management' degrees there/ if possible, I still really hope that I could start all with Swinburne in Biotechnology or EnE. :'(

Will be having 'Basic Cookery' replacement class tomorrow from 9 to 3. Gonna get cooked inside the kitchen with that super thick chef outfit. sweat~

I'm getting back to my HK series now!
And The 'oh oh' next to my hostel room is playing music real loud. @.@~ Sigh. bo pien lo. Who call this not my house.

xoxo
babywern

Eww toe.

2010-06-24T13:28:00.002+08:00

Eww. yuck.

Baby was showering
and he walk up to the room suddenly.
I turned my head and smile.
At first, I wonder why he kept standing at the door holding the edge
Then I discovered his bleeding toe

Then he went off, bringing me down to the loo
and I saw the sink break off on the floor.

I think that's it.
His injury looks really disgusting.
Almost 2-3mm of his skin+flesh went off.

HAHAHAHAHH!
I think its laughable.

xoxo
babywern

Im back

2010-06-21T22:20:00.002+08:00

Two weeks,
I didn't attend any church gatherings. Including the youth that I've always love going. The story too long to tell. All I can say from my experiences gained this 2 weeks is,

" When the distance between me and GOD gets further,
Everything seems so BAD.
When the relationship between me and GOD is closer,
Blessings are never ending... "

Believe in OUR GOD.
Never lost faith.
LOVE everyone.

凡事都要依靠神 ,
真正的平安是從祂那裡來的 !

xoxo
babywern

BABY ♥

2010-06-20T20:29:00.005+08:00

Weekends, especially Saturday and Friday are the best. (for this semester because no class scheduled) ^^. Friday night is relaxing, I stayed in the hostel doing facial stuffs because my face's skin gets so terrible from those sleepless nights due to assignments and stress. And I didn't have the time to use my facial product for days, even toner! wth? yeahh.. But my skin is good like before already now. No more black & white heads, little puffs and dark tone. ^^

Anyway, baby and I went out on Saturday and Sunday. Sunday morning should have went to church but baby's car is still with the mechanic. Plus early morning no Bus. Then in the afternoon, we went to Spring for movie, actually planned to go Stars but it was raining. So yeah.. We watched 'Karate Kid', the movie was just alright for me. I know there's a lot of great feedback. But I think 'wushu' is hell cool lah! ^.< Gonna watch Toy's Story 3 soon. And I'm waiting for one HK movie by 吳彥主 and 古天樂, and The Eclipse. Can't wait. ♥

Tomorrow, I will be having ' Basic Cookery ' Test 2 with Nyko and Xiao. Hopes everything goes well. Time flies. I've just finished all the report dues this week, and next week is already test 2. In another 2-3 weeks time, final finally comes to knock on my door. Then go back Brunei. Looking forward for gatherings with my kawans! Also will be missing someone badly. Baby's starting to get emotional since last few weeks. No wonder his mood swings so much. He just told me. "Lazy bum, if u've told me earlier, we may not have argued so much. Sorry and Love you ♥ "

Photos~

Last time when we went for the Talent Show in Swinburne.

Our best brother took this. Thanks Ray.

I forgot this was when. My casual wear tells me that it must be at night, baby and I went there makan i think. Moshi aka Cupido. One of my love. My other love is Cupipi! ^^

Baby took this, he says pretty. ==* I was rushing my beloved reports at his place. That's how I look when I'm at home, I cant stand my hair flying over my neck. eww~

Saturday outing. Baby and I. ^^

Me with my new lenses. I've tried most of them, and I think I like this series most. Geo Angel. And, my Dueba dreamy lens are on their way. Have almost the same effect but greater diameter. FYI, Im selling~ Ask me for more info.

Love this Body Glove cap! I will be getting it soon and some of their polo tees. I love Polo Tees. ^^ And my mum've got me my hush puppies tee from Miri today. But too bad, Black ones are out of stock, at both Miri and Kuching. Only manage to get a white one. Still happy! Thanks mama.

That's when I knew about Eclipse! Not the mints but the movie! Robbert Pat. ahem ahem. Someone's jealous. :)

I bought this from Ting's Pharmacy. Works pretty nice for scars. I think I didn't mention about how I've got the scars eh, I've got cuts on my hand and lap. (it was weeks ago) UGLY. I'm so afraid of scars. So I tried Hiru scar, it actually make the scars sink but i still can see them. SO I tried this one and it cost me Rm 30. *drools* Expensive. I don't swallow them btw. They contain Vitamin E rich oil inside the capsules. ( Actually, I shouldn't have tried scar remover stuff at first, maybe I should just follow my tradition -- Do nothing, just apply my magic balm. But it was not with me that time! Y.Y Too late. Just hoping there wouldn't be any scars. *pray hard*

Today, before we went for the 'Karate Kid' at Spring. Didn't get much photos of today because didn't do shopping. ^^ After watching, we just went to Premier 101 for dinner. Finally, I had my dinner right tonight. No empty stomach, no biscuits, no plain water.

Gonna continue with the awesome series I bought!
Toodles.

xoxo
babyWern ♥

Short Update

2010-06-17T23:19:00.004+08:00

Hello readers, it's been a week since I last blogged.
Nothing much happenings. Just that I'm really busy with school stuffs.
I wasn't sleeping for 2 nights due to 3 reports. Finally, all are handed in on time today. Good News, I can sleep tonight. Bad news.Tomorrow I will be attending the most horrible class of all! From 9 to 5pm. @.@~ Hin~

MNG is on sales! Because it's June! But I really pok kai this month some more, why? why? I want to shop neh! Y.Y craving for that MNG white Jacket and the handbag. And also Hush Puppies Polo Tee. Gonna get them soon! *evils*

Bah
I'll be ending this post here.
Tomorrow I still need to wakie early.

Nights

xoxo
babywern

Blessings from GOD.

2010-06-08T23:21:00.005+08:00

Certainly yes, I've just got back from my birthday celebration with dear at Four Points Hotel. Actually he planned to bring me to Permai Beach, but things doesn't went on too well. It was pretty disappointing but baby promised that he'll bring me some other day. ^^ After dinning at the Eatery @ 4Points, we went to The Spring with Raymond and Qi to shop for like 30 minutes until the mall closes. Then later, baby suggested to go to Friendship Park for a walk.

Some photos to share. Most of them are in his hp. Sorry for the lousy quality. ~

Baby~ ♥

Foods! (some)

Oh Salmon! *slurpsss*

After dine, we walked around the Hotel and took pictures.

18th Birthday Gift from baby~
Received it when we're at Friendship Park. Aww, that place. It was just a few days after knowing him, we went there. For the sake of some friend and her 'ahem', we left them both alone so not being a bulb. I still remember how 'cold & shy' are we when 2 of us walked around the park. He told me after we got together that he was really shy and don't know what to talk about that time. HAHA! How silly are us. Aww, memories. Too mush of them. :')

And baby made this too~

It was around midnight after 12. He walked me to a park nearby his house. Couldn't get the chance to see them all lighted due to the very 'good' weather.

Thanks to everyone who remembered today
Especially my family and childhood friends in Brunei. Mwahss you all! ♥
Most of all, my family. I miss them so much! and I realized that only them are the one who will never ever do anything to hurt me. Eventho we're far apart, they still baked cake for me (which i can see at fb but cant eat T.T) There's no place like home. That's true.

I'm 18 now.
Yes, very young. wee~
God Bless.

xoxo
babyWern

Untitled

2010-06-08T15:05:00.002+08:00

Today is not a day for something Sad.

Maybe tomorrow.

xoxo
babyWern

Precious 17

2010-06-07T21:07:00.003+08:00

Hye people.

So it's been more or less 2 weeks and I'm back to blog. Blogging didn't actually crossed my mind but I was thinking to post up something for being 17 for the last day (or maybe last few hours?) Wasn't looking forward for anything, just hoping for another bless year. I had been really busy with classes an some random stuffs with my friends. And once again, I went broke. Goodness! I really need a job. Overall, classes were fun especially basic cookery. More Assignments coming up and Tests! Not really in the studying mood this semester, most prolly because it's a short sem. Who cares? I CARE! I really have to study hard. O.O~

Basically, I'm doing quite okay.
That's all for now.
Stay Tune for a real update soon or later.

xoxo
babyWern

14 days off.

2010-05-22T22:31:00.003+08:00

Today was a nice day :)
My sleep was good last night. yay. ^^ Baby woke me up around 12ish and said he's coming over soon to pick me up. Went to The Spring to have my brunch and shop shop. This new store is opening today, "The nature story". It's a Korea brand and I personally like their stuffs, I mean some of them. I haven't got the time and effort to look through everything cause I'm in a rush, plus there's a big crowd. But I think I will be getting it's Sparkle Eyeliner in white (really nice) and some of their masks! :) And I saw a pair of awesome snakeskin heels at Charles and Keith & a snakeskin purse (which is effing pretty!), want them both. LOL. Bought a nice sexy top from Nichii and a Cardigan.

After that, we went to church and at night, we had our dinner with Raymond's Family at Batu Lintang there. Raymond's brother is so cute funny lah and his parents are very friendly! ^^ hehe. Then Raymond join baby and I after the dinner, we went to Boulevard and finally I bought a color plate for my body art thing.

Today's church was really great! I felt God's presence, so strong. I can feel his love and words flowing throughout during prayers and worship. Thank you God for being so nice to me every time. There's a song we sang during the worshiping, "The Stand". Very nice and touching song indeed, I finally awakens. There's too much to share about today, I will just post up the video and you guys feel it, feel what God wants you too know today. And before I leave, this will be my last post, no, i mean within 14 days, I'm not gonna on my laptop. This is a task from God, to give up things that our body needs-- Entertainment. Jia you my friend! Joshua 611 Go Go Go!

The Stand

Some pictures to share.

Since I've decided not to blog for 14 days, I've upload a finish work of the makeup session I've last mentioned. It's just a random makeup I did with the two eyeshadow I've just bought from FaceShop. ^^
Below was some of the photos taken during F&B management practical class at Hilton.

Yesterday I went to Swinburne's Got Talent, the event. It was just alright. Got this print on my hand at the entrance. LOL

So bye bye readers
Gonna miss blogging. :(
Miss me too!

God Bless everyone!

xoxo
babyWern

Tourné

2010-05-20T21:52:00.005+08:00

First day back to Hilton. This Semester all the subjects I'm taking are Hilton subject which are all very tiring! Because it's short Semester, which means we have to complete 4 months class in 2months, therefore every week we have to attend double classes for each and every subject/session. Today, basic cookery in the kitchen, long time didn't go back to Hilton Kitchen, the class is so long like what lah, from 9am to 3 pm then we need to go F&B control class at the ballroom from 3pm to 5pm. @.@ ~

During basic cookery class, we learn basic cutting , how to make stock and make sauce to make chicken chop. Here's some pictures to share ~ *I'm so fat*

Baby and I in the Bus. We're in Hilton tee again. I still remember how we first met during the first semester, aww..we're wearing these too. how noob we were last time. *blush* long story~

Can't believe I can still be this noob. That tee is like so big on me now, which was once fit like dumpling. lmao

This is salad? LOL Looks pretty yummy hor. :d

Chores while we're making our own sauce and stuffs. and cutting carrots and potatoes in different methods.

Tada! Ready for next week! The 2 different sauce and chicken chop we seasoned and packed.

Hehe. My baby's so cute! especially in that lil chef hat. eee! loves~~

Tomorrow have to wakie early again. F&B management practical from 9 to 5! Killing man. sigh. T_T

xoxo
BabyWern

Early Bird.

2010-05-20T06:22:00.004+08:00

Before the Sun rises,
Look at the time, it's only 6.20am in the morning, sky is still dim. And I'm so awake and decided to give an early shot at my blog. Actually I was not asleep for the whole awful night, turning here and there, I'm not feeling good. 2hours ago, I feel so scared as I wonder what happened to me and my body. I started to have weird feelings over my back and pain at the abdomen. I pray and everything gets a lot better, Give thanks to GOD even though we're suffering, cause everything He prepares are good and He have His reason. Hallelujah! (at least I'm not going to miss my early class today again due to oversleep, as I always did. lmao)

It's been a long time when I last got emotional. But I'm still human, well, altho I don't blame, I don't get angry, I don't cry easily, doesn't mean that I don't have problems. Actually, have been facing some financial problems, I wonder where did I spend my money on, I really don't know. Sigh. Maybe I should start praying for a good money management knowledge from God. And yeahh, have been always thinking to get started with my make up career, but always slacked. Oh well, tomorrow Swinburne's gonna have an event, attending with the boyfriend, hope it's enjoyable. Samuel's work, go support support! ^^

Inti's charity night date is confirmed, like finally. Gonna crack my head starting to think of what to perform. So life's so far so good, just that money not enough and some health problem, but no problem is too great than my Lord. Everything's gonna be fine! Amen.

Oh ya before I leave for my bath (have early class), I've completed one make up session, I couldn't upload them yet because my boyfriend haven't done with editing the photos. So yeah..

Bless everyone a nice day!

xoxo
BabyWern

Kidnapper

2010-05-16T21:58:00.005+08:00

Hi people! So here goes another day. Tomorrow's officially the beginning of a new semester, I'm in the 5th . *cross fingers* no fails so far. Have been playing Dota for many days. Still noob. sigh. And yeah, have started going to steam bath treatment with Everline since..Thursday. We have to continue it for a week. Steam bath was really hot & steamy, i can feel my skin burning with pain and sweat goes all over my body in just seconds. But I'm lazy today, so i skipped it. Plus, I forgot the time. LOL

I didn't go to church today! That makes me feel so bad! T_T sigh. I woke up around 7ish, and started to play Dota. Later, Raymond baby and I went to Cyber play Dota again for 2 and a half hours. We played 3 matches. After that, Raymond sent us home but a few minutes later, he called for shopping and movie. LOL Sophia was there too! We reached Spring MBO at 2.10pm and Kidnapper is starting in another 5 minutes. We don have to Q so that makes everything fast. Watched Kidnapper and it was hilarious!

Kidnapper ( Released on 13th May 2010 )

Movie Overview

Lim (Christopher Lee), a struggling and obnoxious 40-year-old taxi driver, is a complete failure. His wife left him years ago. And his only son - Wei Siang (Jerald Tan) - is frequently neglected. Mistaken for a rich man's son, Wei Siang is kidnapped at an arcade one day and held for an enormous ransom. Thus begins one father's relentless quest to get his son back. In the process, he gives up everything in his life to raise the ransom, only to discover that the nefarious kidnapper (Jack Lim) wants even more money. Unable to raise the second ransom, Lim descends into madness as grief and self-doubt overwhelms him. His own morals are threatened when he flirts with the dark side in a desperate attempt to get his son back.

After movie, we went shop shop around and I'm hunting for shoes again! Saw this heels I liked from Nose when it was new there, it costs hunderds but now it's on a 50% sale! Oh gosh, I really ahve to buy it. And also some from vincci, new arrivals, and they all look so awesome. Maybe some other day, hope they await.

P/s: Stay Tune for a makeup session! :D

xoxo

BabyWern

Boredom

2010-05-11T12:32:00.003+08:00

Hey people.

The mood wasn't that good today, just a little bit down..perhaps. I'm listening to this song by Leona Lewis I think? -Footprints in the sand- It's so touching, I mean the melody not the lyrics, I barely know every words in it. Overall, love it.

And yeah, erm..I feel totally blank that I couldn't think of anything to blog about. So why not you guys tell me, do feel free to place requests in my chat box about anything you're curious about & to be advised. I'm thinking hard.

Yeah..so.. I'm in progress of getting a driving license currently. Finished the 'Law' class and I'm gonna sit for the test this coming thursday morning. And I haven't even touch that book which includes 500 objectives in MALAY! Killing me man! O.O Yes Summer, YOU CAN! lmao. and I will be getting my 3rd injection (last one) for the cervarix cancer prevention thingy. Oh my. I'm broke. :( It costs me hundreds per injection. It's just the beginning of May. Sigh. and I got myself another bag still. HAHA! but it's too gorgeous that I would had have nightmares about it if I did not buy it. D: Have been over-reacting ho, ignore that.

Bored of Xdo (still playing), so starting to play Dota. I'm still a Noob, but not forever Noob.

Cell group tonight at Alicia's.

Tomorrow's gonna be another boring day with the 'Law'-s.

School reopening soon, NOOOOO!
I haven't really enjoyed my holiday. T_T

xoxo
BabyWern

I'm sorry if it hurts baby.

Living an alive Life.

2010-05-08T23:34:00.009+08:00

Hello People~
Yes, I'm still in my holidays!
I'm happy!
Spent lots of time with the boyfriend, yes like always.
BUT we're books free for 2 weeks. :)
Our last activity was going for a movie.
We finally managed to watch IP man 2 today!
We booked the ticket in advance.
And that movie was hilarious!
'Chinese Wu-shu' is Awesome!
Thumbs up for that great movie!

Some old photos to show~

Baby brought me to Kensaku Japanese Restaurant.
It was during the beginning of April. :)
I've always miss Kaizen.

Garlic Rice tastes better at Kaizen.
Sigh~

HAHA! Orang Utan! A surprise trip by baby to somewhere somewhere. I forgot where. LOL. This was during the end of March if I'm not mistaken. There's still a lot of wild animals there and I did experienced wild~ as in walking. eww. I should have wore my snickers, but I didn't know that I'm going into the nature that day. So yeah..but it was still an enjoying trip! Really, and baby also brought me to eat Durian Ice! (which was, yes, far from town).

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Few days ago, after hills.
Here's Me in my new bling spects.
Bought it for Fun!

" When Life gives you Lemon, Make Lemonade "

xoxo
BabyWern

My cute awful Boyfriend.

2010-05-06T10:13:00.002+08:00

Hello readers, it had been a week since i last blog. I'm enjoying great holidays now! My last paper was pretty good, I'm having confident that I will score high for it. ^^ which is a good thing. It's the 6th days of holiday today, and it wasn't that great actually but at least I don't have to go to classes and attending those awful tests.Nowadays, I'm actually spending most of my time at the Hospital. My boyfiee's grandma was admitted into the Hospital last Friday. So since we're having holidays and 'adults' are busy with their work, we have to take the morning shift. Waking up so early that I couldn't imagine that I'm that strong, physically. LMAO. It wasn't that bad thou, cause I brought my lappie with me. Yesterday night, went to watch " Ice Kacang Puppy Love " with my friends at MBO, there were 11 of them. The movie wasn't that good actually. NOW, I'm looking forward to watching "Happy Go Lucky" and " Toy Story III "YAY! Oh people, I love going to cinemas. Gonna watch IP man soon. :)

Today, I was a bit tired. I'm now at the hospital. I've finished watching that Singapore Drama series baby bought, and I'm heavenly bored today. :O and he've got that addiction on reading that whatever book about shaolin! URGH! *yawns* I want BED!

Later gonna go tuition center again.
My cute little students, I don't like how u guys scored!
Oh GOD, help me. Teach me how to teach. D:
I'm not an easy-giving-up girl.
Nothing is Impossible with My Lord.
Hallelujah~

I'll prolly stop here.
My boyfiee start nagging for Teh-C Peng?! O.O
Plus he wants to watch "Camp Rock"
...and now he wants to do sh*tting business. ==
and he just...eww~

xoxo
babyWern

Toast Bar ♥

2010-04-26T22:19:00.005+08:00

Me and Reb at Church after the Dancing Performance during Easter Day ♥

Im just back from 'Toast Bar' with Reb Dear.
It's a very nice place and the toast are very special.
And the design of that place was pretty good, too.

Today no class. And Final is coming to an end soon. hehe. In the evening, Baby brought me to The Spring cause I want to but Mother's Day Pressie for my mum. I finally found something for her, which I also like it myself. Hope she'll like it too ^^ Happy Advance Mother's Day, Mummy~ Miss you Miss You. ♥ After purchasing, it's almost 7 and we have to go. I have a date with Reb and baby have to go Music Center to teach. So we left. Then picked Reb and went to Jln Song as planned to eat ice-cream, but the shop was closed. :( So we ended up at Toast Bar. But we're still enjoying the time cause I've been nagging to go there before it's officially open. I like the area there. hehe. Finally got some places like this to hangout here.

Yumm~
We ordered the same food same drink.
We did not plan it.
The toast is very special. Love it very much! ♥
Wanna go again. ^^

Don't know if we should say that we're lucky?
Cause,
We don't have to pay. Of course we went to pay.
But the people say they didn't save our order. @.@
So we basically ate for free.

Rawr. Love life.

xoxo
BabyWern

Lost

2010-04-25T21:36:00.003+08:00

Back for an update~
I wonder how u guys felt when reading ,
or is there even anyone who read?
Sigh.

So, today..was pretty good. No down mood.
I realized that I'm happy everyday.
Well, I face problems of course
But I'm thinking in a positive way
Knowing that it's what GOD prepared.
And also having so many wonderful friends~
That makes my life so much better!
Not to forget, I have a guy in my life
Who love me more than everything. I feel so lucky.
Thank you Jesus for the blessings! Amen

The Final is gonna be over soon~
To be frank, I did not tried my best
Oh ya, been recently listening to this song "Angel" by Kate Voegele
First, I love 'Angel'. And this song is very nice too. ^^

Next week is going to be our semester break. I miss my mum like seriously.
But I'm not going back. :( I'm still considering thou.
And it's time to make a choice to continue here or go for what I like in Swinburne.
Every decision affect every other decisions. I dislike making decision, once again.

Have facing many problem these days actually
But I feel okay~ It's something new to learn!
Praying for GOD's guidance and I hope for answers everyday I pray.
HE hears my prayer and always do. Thanks you Jesus.
Halelujah~

xoxo
BabyWern

I feel lost..

Poor Elaboration

2010-04-22T16:17:00.002+08:00

In baby's room, and it's very unfair that he can sleep and I can't! We did not sleep yesterday because we very rajin study. I feel like my brain had expand to its limit, no more space for any expansion, I can't add in French anymore. Wait me free some space, but time don't wait. It's almost 5pm, my french exam will be in another 16 hours subtract random stuffs I bet I will be doing later, like sleeping, daydreaming, Fb, eating, and I'm going to church. Oh French, I realized somehow I don't love you anymore.

So, today's HR Final was pretty okay, but I'm very disappointed with my elaborations! And my brain is not functioning well these days. T___T And I still miss reading Science and Maths. I wanna leave this place. and saying about this, I this lately misses home very much, I wanna go back Brunei, I miss Kaizen and my friends and my family! But I'm not going back! If I do, I won't have to refuse working in the upcoming PC fair already lah.

Blah Blah
I really can't elaborate well now.
I don't know what I'm trying to say here~

*screams*
Hope that I can do well tomorrow.
I don't want disappointment!

xoxo
BabyWern

That's how hurt feels

2010-04-18T13:06:00.003+08:00

I dislike Emo.
But emotional mood kinda strikes me today.
I'm not desperate.
I'm not hopeless.
I'm not feeling that the world is upside down.
It's not that horrible.

I just simply feel sad.
It's like a knife stabbed into the heart
and tear our heart apart.
It's like all the beautiful words u once said
and things we've done
became something I couldn't catch anymore.

I have to admit that
It hurts me
I dislike being fragile
but somehow
The stronger I tend to be
the weaker I feel.

I couldn't imagine
how you're gonna be now
I'm sorry if I'm being cruel
I just have to be
So you would learn how to stand up.

I feel sad too.
I'm worried here
I can't do anything.
I have to stop myself from looking back.

Feelings are bubbling inside me
I have to calm down
I have to sleep dead
and maybe..
I really have to cry.

p/s: I love you, and I feel stupid.

xoxo
BabyWern

I'm an Achiever!

2010-04-17T09:24:00.002+08:00

Update update~
Celcom line sucks these days. Really frust me out. ugh.

Days are effing boring.
Went to the Spring for several times. First, was with baby and his parents. Baby was so happy that his parents is going the spring with him, cause it's the first time. The spring is an old mall already, it had been 2+ years tho. I spent again, as usual. I bought a 'Roxy' pencil case without any consideration. Very fast ha. And there's a Bridal Fair now at the Spring! and also ada Fashion show these few days. Do drop by people. *dream* I hope one day I can be one of them too. Become a known backstage makeup artist, designer, Modeling (wait until I become a skinny pie) and so on. I'm not envy, cause I know GOD prepares the best for me. Amen! ^^

Today, I really have to study already. I really hate it when I'm not nervous at all, but I feel stress. Still, no motivation to study. NO!!! I dislike my 'last-minute' girl attitude. :( Horrible. Terrified.

I have to study. I have to study. I have to study. @.@
Summer! c'mon get your head stuck in your books!
No time for u to waste!
Achiever do whatever it takes!

Bye readers.
Stay tune for more updates.

xoxo
BabyWern

I feel love.

2010-04-13T21:42:00.010+08:00

Days were pretty tiring and depressed, but I'm trying to be optimistic.
Be strong in front of someone you love when you only show your weakness in front of them. So me. Tears hardly fall when I'm alone, but it falls like a non-stop flowing tap when I'm inside his arms. Those tears that aches his heart, baby~ I'm sorry to cry. Thank you for being there for me no matter how tired you were, but you just gotta know, you mean everything to me. Let us be strong together.

Before, I didn't cherish you.
I didn't care about your feelings.
I'm too selfish.
But baby,
I hope It's not too late to let you know now
It's not gonna be so anymore.
I love you
I shouldn't deny it just to protect myself.
I'm not afraid of showing my love anymore.
I shouldn't had hold back so much.
Without realizing how much you suffered.

Wern Love Suen~ ♥

Went to baby's place for few days. We watched 'I do' together, we almost finish it. That movie was quite good. And we ate a lot! again. and I spend quite a lot too. :S My test last Saturday was pretty okay, it's better than the mid exam. Thank GOD! ^^ Oh ya, Im now currently teaching Science at a tuition center. I am really glad about it, cause I have a chance to deal with what I like and misses so much. Science and Maths. And yesterday I went to an interview at 'Stage' @ Spring Mall, everything went well. :) Thanks A Jie to be my model.

Baby prepared a surprise breakfast
I Love hash browns as usual. :d

Porridge for baby. :)
He was so happy. hearts*
It was around 12 mid-night.

Before I went out to Bing!

I'm a blessed girl~
Thank you Jesus.

xoxo
BabyWern

Today

2010-04-06T21:56:00.002+08:00

Finally, I can blog now.
The line sucks today. D:

I have been loving puppies and wanting them ever since I got back from Miri. Last month, a good friend of mine phoned me and told me that there's a Maltpoo now at her shop. I was hyper and went immediately to see. It's a SHE! She's super uper cute but I gave her up to someone elses cause of some reasons. That was sad. T_T Cause I've been searching for Maltese/Poodles for a long time already. I turn away my focus to my busy life, just to not feel sad thinking about it.

Just this lately, my eagerness towards in getting a pup is so strong. My boyfiee have actually planned to buy me one for my b'day ( of course, I gorek this secret from him with skills, so no more surprise. ), but I can't wait. :( FYI, it's not that you want the puppy then sure have d lahh ok? Need wait up to months or maybe wait for nothing. That really make my heart very itchy lar. So now there's some choices to be made again. We'll see how it goes.

Oh well, final is coming to visit very soon.
I will be having the first final test this coming Saturday, and tomorrow, I'm having French Oral test. Wish me lucks people.

P/s: I haven't prepared. :S

"If you never trusted me, don't treat me as a lover.
Don't make me stay when I want to leave."

xoxo
babyWern

Fattening day.

2010-04-02T23:52:00.003+08:00

Back for an update people~
I just got back from my boyfiee's place, tiring day.

I didn't get a good sleep last night, I was turning all over my bed, changing sides and hugging the pillow other way round repeating-ly. It was terrible when I got up, forcing my eyes to open and moving. It was 7.30am, I finally push myself out of the bed as baby phoned and say he'll be arriving at 8. I prepared and we went out. I was expecting of going to the church but turn out not, cause there's no 'Good Friday' function at Chin Fu in the morning. And guess what, he brought me to some places near Matang. I think we finally arrives at a place called something whatever Wildlife at Matang there. That's the surprise he made, now I know. It was not really exciting at first until I know what's inside. Pictures will be uploaded some other time, maybe. My memory card reader is still with Samuel.

We went to dancing practice in the afternoon at church, It was awesome like always. Love dancing and most of all, you guys! Hugs*
I've bought that MNG singlet that I've eyed on very long time ago. ^^
Baby and I ate a lot today by the way, very loads of unhealthy food. That's why I cant stop gaining! *screams* I must control! CONTROL! baby, stop buying food and drinks or whatever junks for me. please~ T.T Don't bring me to eat every time mo, I don't need 3 full meals to live, an apple a day is my way of living.

That's all readers
Tomorrow's will be another great day!
Toodles

xoxo
babyWern ♥

What is Love?

2010-03-30T19:18:00.001+08:00

爱情

不要认为后面还有更好的，因为现在拥有就是最好的。
不要认为我还年轻，可以晚些结婚，爱情是不等年龄的。
不要因为距离太远而放弃，爱情是可以和你一起坐火车的。

不要因为对方不富裕而放弃，只要不是无能的人，勤劳可以让你们致富。
不要因为父母反对而放弃，你会发现这个原因而放弃的爱情，将是你一生的悔恨。
其实，对于爱情，越单纯越幸福！一生只谈一次恋爱是最好的。经历的太多了，会麻木，分离多了，会习惯，换恋人多了，会比较，到最后你会不再相信爱情，你会自暴自弃，你会毫无生气，你会行尸走肉，你会与一个你不爱的人结婚，就这样过一辈子···

所以牵好的手就不要轻易放开，说过的话就不要轻易收回，承诺过的人就不要轻易忘记···

有些人，有些事，既然发生了。
就注定是你一生的回忆···

xoxo
BabyWern

Who am I?

Lilupdate

2010-03-28T21:26:00.002+08:00

Today is super dancing day! It was AMAZING, I love to dance just like always. Currently learning Hip Hop Jazz. And also, I have been practicing for the performance of the Easter Day. Amazingly, we've finish choreographing the whole dance today! ^^. Hallelujah~ I just love to dance!

I haven't start my report yet, and I have to submit it tomorrow. I'm so geng. Gotta finish it first. And I'm going cashless, once again. A good reason to not eating~ (Y)

xoxo
babyWern

Who am I?

2010-03-27T22:48:00.004+08:00

Hello readers, I'm back! but where should I start. Oh well, life wasn't easy last few days, a lot of decision making which is what I've always hated, and confusions about myself.

Who am I? I'm lost once again.
Been listen to these random song I accidentally seeked from my Itunes.
" Let Me Be Myself " by 3 doors down.
It's been a long time, I cant find any song that describes my current life conditions (despite worship songs) because I'm unlike those girls thinking about L.O.V.E all day long. I'm not hurt. Love ain't everything, still my favorite quote. Anyway, back to that song, it is AWESOME and I'm planning to perform it. I've asked my boyfiee, as always, he's my music auditor.

And and and..

I don't know what to blog about anymore.
My Life is going on a rough track. I pray with God's guidance, I can go through this.
Hallelujahh~

xoxo
babyWern ♥

Critical Stage

2010-03-21T00:33:00.004+08:00

Sorry readers, I really forgot about my blog. This week had been a very tough week for me, it's a critical stage I would say. It's all about my career and future. Hence, really important. I love to study but I don't have the confidence. It was really horrible thinking about this, my heart is not there to study what I am now. As I always say, I don't like what I'm doing now, I wanna go Swinburne, that's my dream. But do everyone understand how it feels when you can't achieve a dream. Maybe my dream would sound funny or ridiculous, but that's me and my dream upon my academic.

This is not an easy choice, it affects many factors and people around you. Decision making is my super weakness. I'm tired and busy of thinking now. I just can't stop thinking. I'm insane. Let my brain rest, anyone? T.T

I seeked for God's guidance every time since, but I couldn't get a confirmation yet.

but I won't give up in searching God's presence. Bless me.

It's just another short update.
I'm busy.

xoxo
雯 ♥

confusion
and helpless

My reason for living

2010-03-13T01:21:00.002+08:00

現在
我感覺有點不尋常
算了不說了..

我要為神而活
禱告期待信靠等待

我相信會有奇蹟的~

xoxo
雯 ♥

A chocolate day!

2010-03-09T20:37:00.007+08:00

Hello people, it had been quite a long time when I last blogged. Why? Because the line effing sucks these days, especially here. I'm staying at my boyfie's place since last Thursday, and should be going back as usual on Sunday, but instead, I didn't cause I sprained my leg. Awful. Did I mentioned that I'm starting to get back to dancing job? I think I mentioned it on my facebook, not here. Hmm, anyway yeah..I went for Hip Hop Dance Class and Modern Jazz at Dance Academy here in Kuching. Hip Hop class was on Friday, it was awesome. The next day, it's my Modern Jazz class, and very unluckily, I sprained my right foot while landing. Pity me, that hurts. :( That's why my boyfie wanted me to stay here, plus I cant walk and my hostel room is on the 4th floor, so damn it, how do you think I can climb that? Baby pindah downstairs too, cause I can't climb up to his room upstairs. gahhh~ But anyway, my leg is recovering. Almost. I hope I can attend my dancing class this Friday. Let's see what I did. On Sunday, we stayed home revising for our tests and Im reading in a really slow pace. I'm a last minute girl still, not good. LMAO. Monday, he went to class while I stay home sleeping. He told me that he couldn't wake me up and don't wanna disturb me pig-ing. I really didn't hear him calling. == And later in the afternoon, his
mum and him brought me to doctor before sending us off to Hilton for Exam. Yes, I walk just like how a snail does. At night, we very guai look after the house while his parents are out, we watched Titanic, he like that cause he say very romantic. Apuuu~ *headpain* And at last, we made jelly that night in Mango Flavor! (Y) Nice~~ ^^

So today, we went to Hilton class as usual, I'm forced to go cause I have exam, the teacher postponed it from yesterday bahh, == The test was ok. And baby and I went to Hills for shopping. Long time no shop le! gahh! and and I bought a new hair extension wig, will be taking some photos if I'm free. We did eating mostly, many food to try there. ^^

Food Inc. Something like a food court. I think It's nice cause the food are special (some) and the way they trade. Baby bought me one Chocolate dip Marshmallow and another Chocolate custard from Kimbay stall. The custard is like 2-thumbs up! Wanna try the other flavors next time. and I'm really loving it . :)

I'm sharing some photos today :

Before we went out

Baby ordered that for me
It's Chocolate Shake with pearls. Yumm~

Choco dipped!
♥ baby

Another chocolate!
Effing delicious ♥

and here's my kitty on my leg ♥

Kitty: " Daddy~ "
That's my injured leg and she even kissed it. Cute

xoxo
babySumMer

A bad day.

2010-03-03T23:34:00.008+08:00

I had an awesome dream last night, which means disappointment when I woke up. I was freakishly happy yet sad cause I know in reality, that's not gonna happen. So anyways, I knew it's gonna be a bad day 1, when I woke up, cause I'm undergoing the most awful week of a month for girls. And it effing hurts, I couldn't even sit straight. Pity me or not, I went for shopping yet cause I've promised my friends last night. And I really wanted to go cause I want to buy my bag. I've been browsing around few of my fave brand for 2 days and I kinda like very eager want to buy now CAUSE my new kitten peeeee-ed on my handbag when me and baby bring her out to shop yesterday. So i went with my awful period but it gets better after I ate my lunch(thank God) , maybe I'm just too hungry the night before. So we went to eat at Cheese and Tea, it's not new but it's our first time there. The food was nice! (despite of me being hungry) I ordered Cheese baked macaroni with Turkey or whatsoever, it's CHEESE it called, so cheese must be the brand. So yeah.. and it was really nice.

After lunch, we went to SSPCA as my friends requested and then off to Spring after. Bad day 2 which means I need to choose what to buy but ended buying nothing. That's common in my case. So now, I gotta choose from 3 handbags (Roxy or MNG) and what brand to buy for my toner( Lancome, Chanel or Kose ) and Biotherm for me and him(done choosing). OR buy nothing, just to save up my money for a branded hang bag or a toy poodle. Yes as my friend said, I have trouble in choosing. That's true. Since I'm in Primary 6. That's lame and I cried over choosing. == It's a bad day 3 cause I met a Temporary promoter that corrected me wrongly, she tells me that those are Nail Polish instead of what the really were. Hello..you're promoting your product, don't you like have to understand them more ? Not being offensive. :) Baby brought me to Boulevard at night, and I bought a cute T and a cute Testpad because there's an ELEPHANT printed on it. Yes, I love Elephants. This neutralize the bads a lil. :)

And, this nice outfit below that I'm considering too.

Tomorrow's the day for my Malay Presentation, and I haven't start drafting my syarahan nor my presentation. :S

Bye for now readers.
xoxo
babySumMer

Me love Animals

2010-02-28T19:39:00.004+08:00

Just went through a cat and dog fight few hours ago. Well, fights bring double happiness in the end, most of the time. Two people when together, should talk out if needed, cause God didn't give humans the ability to read others mind! Anyway, did I say that I adopt a new kitten again? Yes, I'm a super animal lover, sorta, this time is a Siamese Kitten * female. Should be adopting that male Siamese next 2 weeks if there's no more new ones that I like.

I adopted my Kitten this time not buying, but I still need to pay lahh. LMAO
I used to buy kittens from Satok, sunday market here in Kuching. But I adopted this Siamese cat at S.S.P.C.A which stands for Sarawak Society For The Prevention of Cruelty To Animals. Located at 6 1/2 mile, Penrissen Road, Kucing. There you can find large variety of cats and dogs with good health treated/maintained by their vets there. Plus, they will not let you adopt a sick / almost dying pets. There was a girl there adopted a German Shepard @ Rm 150 ( as you all know, GS cost around thousands) , but I guess I don't have the luck in finding the small breeds of dogs I wanted. I want maltese/ poodle but I have no news from the pet shop yet. *sobs* And I haven't really thought of a name for my new kitten. Butterfly didn't sound really nice. hmm.

Will upload some photos of her when she's stable. She's just 5-6 weeks old, thus need more careful care. I restocked some cat food from Amazing Pets last night, but she couldn't even eat. MiMi (another cat baby got for me last year) ate most of it. At first when I had Mimi, she was young too but she eats like what , I spoon fed her and used a straw to feed her water. LOL

Before I leave
I would like to wish everyone ' Happy Chap Go Meh ! '
I dinner-ed with baby and his family.
Should have went to church but I was lazy so baby sent me back. ^^ ♥

Today's highlight:
I want to be a full-time blogger, blog about makeups, beauty skin products, tips, and whatever related. I had been talking about this for a year, yet I haven't start doing it. rofl.

xoxo
babySumMer

♥ :)

2010-02-28T11:21:00.005+08:00

Days can be easy if we want it to be.

As you can see, I have more emotional updates, I can be really emotional when I'm alone. That's why I hate this room (which I usually tend to blog after awhile staying inside) ! Ask them, my friends, they will say I'm normal and mature or maybe optimistic. But everyone keeps a something inside themselves that no one knows. For me, no emotional cause it spoils other's mood ; I don't like sharing bad experiences and feelings too. Maybe someone elses feels ok being emo, not me. Ah whatever. :X

Here, I would like to share some photos that we edited last night. We're just bored and he can't stop nagging me for our photos. So yeah, we took quite a lot of photos this lately. Here are

some.

♥

and

xoxo

babySumMer

遺憾？

2010-02-24T01:02:00.004+08:00

寶貝

對不起

因為我懷疑你的真心

原諒我努力了卻還是找不回從前對你那份執著

很多事情你讓我失望我已習慣

不再相信人類的我該怎樣給你快樂與承諾

我做不到

我不能答應你天長地久我心里有數

我們到了將來也只會是個曾經

我不敢再跟你說傷害你的話

只怕你一次比一次的沒有信心

我知道我不可以

傷害你了

我不想繼續成為別人口中

毀你前途的女朋友

別說你不在乎

因我只會更難受

身為女朋友

不該是這樣的

對不起

我始終給不了你承諾

xoxo

babySummer

what should I..

Chinese New Year!

2010-02-17T15:45:00.004+08:00

LOL! sorry for not blogging, once again. It's Chinese New Year! But I don't have the feel. Valentine's is not a day for me either. But thanks to my family and friends! Without you guys, my new year would be even bored. I'm leaving this coming Saturday to Kuching, I'm kinda looking forward to it or maybe not. I just want to go some place that isn't boring. Yesterday was fun, went outing with Teo. Hui. Han. Jong. Onion and many more friends. Its was tirring yet memorable. Brunei is never boring with you guys! I miss some other gangs of friends too! Where are you guys?! and also Miri kawans, i couldn't hardly meet you guys cause I'm already back in Brunei, and when I go again, will be the day I set for my flight. sigh! Moreover, my next visit to HOME is like end of the year. Will you guys still remember me?

Sometimes, I felt down thinking that our distance are getting even more far. I don't want to lose any of you guys. Everyone now have their own path way and gradually seperated to different gangs, which i might not know. Somehow, I miss those times when we go to school together, laugh together, visit together, having exam together and even sharing homeworks? These are like leaving me so far behind. I couldn't get into the conversations sometimes. That's ...awkward.

*shoo the bad mood*

SUSHI!
I want sushi before I go back, that's a must. LOL

and I gained fats. That's a stress for me.

P/s: Ben dan, love yourself. Jesus Loves You. No matter how bad you think you are. Because of Love, you will be free from the curse, believe in him and see the change. I'm always here for you friend!

MAY GOD BLESS EVERYONE!

xoxo
babysummer

Tears of happiness..

I'm sorry baby

2010-02-08T18:46:00.002+08:00

It's another time now, I'm all alone in my room. No work, No class. Music plays and everything happened flash back. All the things that I'm trying to forget couldn't be forgotten. I feel so dumb! Why can't I start a new life? Why is it so hard? I just wanna be alone, with some friends. I wanna have another start. I don't want you anymore. But I don't want to hurt you. How could I stand in front of you, seeing into your miserable eyes that tell me that I'm wrong. How cruel can I be?

Everything happened last year in the beginning was not forgotten. Now I know. I'm keeping myself away from those bad memories and try to remember how good are you after. But I think..I cant.

I wanna go back Brunei/Miri!

Leave this horrible place! and your parents, your life.

I miss my family

I miss my friends.

I don't wanna be here... T.T

I want to be happy.

I gotta go my own way

That's all I've wanted.

xoxo

Summer

BUT..

Revealing ?

2010-02-04T15:56:00.000+08:00

I have to admit
there's something happening in me
I'm sick

I'm wrong
to keep everything inside
running away from everything ;
I don't wanna be fragile
I'm nothing like the others
Cause I know I can be strong

But Strong girl still falls one day
I realise.

Deep inside
I know
who can help
But I fear
I fear ..

I'm sorry my beloved Father-in-heaven.
Forgive me my pig-headedness
that I couldn't even shed of my outside in front of you

P/s: Thank you for everyone who tried to tell me what's wrong. And Maltese, thanks for bringing back a smile on me that I lost long, thou it ended a second of moment.

xoxo
Summer

I Love Jesus

2010-01-24T14:15:00.004+08:00

I'm feeling quite tired now. Should I go out again, I feel like taking some rest at home. Praying. Yesterday was tired. I went Spring with my guy and friends. It was happy thou. and I managed to go to the youth at church this week. I know from somewhere , I realised something new that night. I need more time but there's no more time for us. There's one rescent song that I accidentally found in my hp, ' Unreserved Love '. I kinda feel it. I don't know what to say anymore. There's alot of emotions and words bubbling inside me. But I can't speak. Im confused.

" Unreserved Love "

xoxo

Summer

Thanks for your love

My Lord

Update Update

2010-01-19T14:55:00.002+08:00

At last I'm here to update.

I was busy

Busy with shopping and outing and classes and earning. (FYI, I'm out of cash) fuuu~

I think I spent too much but I didn't buy much. I wonder how my money flies. And now I'm left with 10 bucks. == lmao. School was not really cool cause I'm not in a study mood. But heyy, yesterday's French class was awesome. It's hard. :X So.. today I have only one Hilton class to attend, Front Office Management. Just some fidelio to be completed and It's still ok for me. Not Malay, stupid Bahasa Kebanagsaan that I'm taking this semester. == I really surrender. My Malay totally sucks now, much worser than before. Furthermore, there's some difference between Brunei's and Malaysia's. Oh-my, I haven't do my assignment yet. Friends in Brunei, help me =( I wanna go back for Chinese New Year one.

One more thing, I'm gainning weight and I'm stress with that! Shyt lahh. I don eat also fat, I really don't know how. The more I don't eat, the more I gain. That's not logic! damn. ugh

Double chin go away, tummy go flat mhan, butterfly arm fly away lahhhh! FUUUU~!

xoxo

babySummer

I can be yours

First post of the year 2010

2010-01-06T19:43:00.004+08:00

Maybe it's too late to greet but anyways,

Happy New Year.

Year 2009 is a year I wont forget. That year, I learned and saw a lot of things that I never knew before. It's a year when I grew a lot. I somehow realised many different kind of good/bad things about life and all those facts and obstacles that everyone will face. I never think that myself's unlucky, instead I think I'm lucky cause I'm still breathing in this brand new year 2010. I made it to here and I hope that with the guidance of GOD, I can be better.

There's too much memories in year 2009, so I might not be listing them down

But thank you my friends and supporters.

And Suen. He made my life different and had also taught me a lot, and I mean really loads.

Time flies too fast and I'm missing 2009.

The Greatest Gift I had last year was becoming a christian and I'm proud of it.

Will update more soon

I'm feeling blue without a specific reason.

So toodles and stay tune readers.

xoxo

babySummer

GEMINI :(

2009-12-29T22:36:00.002+08:00

I'm not quite in the blogging mood

I realise that very weird in my case

As I used to blog quite often, before I came back to Miri/Brunei

Was I busy ?

Or I don't feel like sharing what had happened.

I think I've changed, in a bad way.

SIGH

Holiday is gonna be over real soon

I'm going back to Kuching and I don't feel happy nor very sad.

Maybe It's just fixed? I still have to do it no matter what.

Why not just stick to the old plan

Now I hate being a Gemini.

I never can stay on one decision.

In my academic and my love life.

Actually, I've been thinking to change my course since the first semester ended cause I don't feel like studying with this course and the Uni. Plus I really do miss Studying Something, like Biology and Maths. Maybe something more challenging? or maybe Interior design and Business? Oh-MY, I hate it when it comes to decision making.

My love life too.

Old or New?

Sacrifice for someone who love you but you don't love

Or..?

I'm tired of these, so can you just leave me alone? or not?

or maybe I might not be happy without you?

What is love?

I'm confused

but trying hard to be happy again.

Ben Dan left footprints that I'm erasing.

And You left memories that I can't bear to erase ; I don't wanna hurt you

But I cant give you the forever that you want.

Once again,

I don't like being a Gemini.

I am who?

xoxo

Summer

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Feeling sick :(

Revives?

All messed up

My first liltutorial

Turning Point

Seaweed Love.

A note

Hello Panda

It's not the End. :)

:D

Live for You

I'm okay

Why

Keeping inside

:(

Sick

^^

First day of 2nd week

Pfftt

My day!

Im sorry

New Semester

Im a fool

Why me?

Untitled

Thank you baby

2011 ♥

2010 is ending. :)

A memorable Xmas.

Helpless

Lilupdate

如果

I waited

Nil

...

Sad Max

Halloween ?

Myst Cafe & SUMMER Shopping Mall

♥ New skin & 20102010 ♥

Summary of 2 weeks.

愛人 ?

My Firday & Saturday~

Multiple Updates~

Mid-Autumn Festival

Rainy Sunday.

Baby's 23rd Birthday

It's one happy day out.

Finally, my turn.

Everyone can read.

Dreams

Happy day.

Sem 6

Weird

Our God is awesome

Finally, an update.

Missing you already!

幸福不是必然

The Light

Caffe cino.

^^.

Eww toe.

Im back

BABY ♥

Short Update

Blessings from GOD.

Untitled

Precious 17

14 days off.

Tourné

Early Bird.

Kidnapper

Movie Overview

Boredom

Living an alive Life.

My cute awful Boyfriend.

Toast Bar ♥

Lost

Poor Elaboration

That's how hurt feels

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